Jue's Life

Sparks Fly

2011-01-03T23:55:00.003+08:00

2011 is here...

This is a year that i must utilise ttm to ensure that i get promoted...

getting retained is something that can only happen once in JC so i guess its my final chance too...

Anyway

It's time to change POSITIVELY for the better instead of dwelling in the past...

So life has been sort of D U L L...

Tuition+Training+lots of stoning...

Haiz...

Sounds so sian right?IKR!!!

RAWRS

and i'm juz messed up inside...

I know how i feel for her is true...

BUT

I dun wanna risk the friendship that I have with her...

I dun wanna lose her

Well i'll juz see how it goes......

At this rate,i might juz lose her...

and its juz enjoyable,tiring and painful...

and To have her company is really great i guess...

But anyhow...

I shall constantly remind myself...

STAY FOCUSED!!!

lol

and maybe this song Sparks Fly is something i can relate to...

Just the chorus

Drop everything now,

Meet me in the Pouring Rain...

Kiss me on the sidewalk,

Take away the pain,

Cause I see,

Sparks Fly,

Whenever you smile...

Get me with those black(originally sung as green) eyes

Baby when the lights go down,

Give me something that will haunt me

When you're not around,

Cause I see,

Sparks Fly,

Whenever you smile.........

In my head

2010-08-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it hurts so bad that i want to shout,shout,shout and never stop...
Sometimes I just don't feel like talking...
So don't say that i'm anti-social by putting on the ear piece
Cause i need my time alone,in my own world to sort things out and to figure out the places...
I squash alone,
Cause I want to vent all that pent up emotions,that i hide inside me,out on the squash ball...
Most of the times,the smiles you see aren't genuinine,
For I am smiling to pretend that I'm okay
Cause it makes me feel really bad when my frens get worried and asks if I'm okay...
Emo,
I guess it's really part of me I guess...
Just that i don't show,
Cause i hide it all the time,
but sometimes,i don't hide it too well,
and it escapes onto the surface...
and then all hell breaks loose........

Well,
now now,lets see..........
I cant balance sleep and studies man...
If i study,i sleep too little...
if i sleep,I study too little......
GIMME MORE TIME MAN!!!!!!!
HAHAHA

In my head---Jason Derulo

What if

2010-07-11T10:43:00.002+08:00

I live...
Being happy for someone else,
but myself...
Who Wears the mask of happiness,
Shall stay in my own world...

What if------Simple plan

Heart Heart HeartBreak

2010-07-02T00:10:00.003+08:00

Exams finally over...
Update on exams!
Chinese was Managable...
Some parts easy,but there's one part which stressed me out cause it was damm challenging...
Chem?
FLUNG!!!
OMG....
Those were from yesterday...
Today?
PHYSICS!
I could do but some the answers weird weird one...
But then got a number of questions idk how to do...
Juz hope that i can pass......
This time round,MYEs quite screwed leh...
Quite sian...
Aiya,
Too bad i guess...
Then went to Bball juz now cuz dun wan go class outing...
Went for dinner at restaurant
Then came back home to blackshot with Justin!
And here i m,blogging...
I should really be sleeping since tmr needa wake up early tmr...

Irreplaceable

Heart Heart HeartBreak---Boys like girls

When I look at you

2010-06-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

Haiz,maths ar maths ar...my worst enemy in life......
was yst that i had maths paper,did so bad that i juz hope i can get a subpass or pass...
Then today econs...
Didn't prepare sufficient but still answered all the questions but a few incomplete...
Tomorrow,
Chem and chinese...
I m so not studying chinese...
Maybe juz read the text lor...
Hope its gonna be easy!
3hour paper leh...
Think that i might sleep...
And like i can't find alot of chem notes...
Lets hope that someone comes to sch early to lend me!
At least i can study chem before the chinese paper!
Aiya...
Like no mood to study...
Have been pretty depressed lately...
which have been keeping my sleep away from me...
Really juz wanna cry out loud and fall asleep...
And wad isit that i'm so depressed about...
I'm not gonna tell you!
HA HA....
Epic lame......
But this time its like freaking bad situation...
Cuz i feel like running 3 full marathons in a straight row...
I doubt that i can even do 1 without stopping to rest...
But if i run on and on,
the feeling of depression slips away too...
I'm so tired of all this!
Sometimes i wonder what can i do to improve my life...
What isit that I can do that is WITHIN MY CONTROL...
Looking bad on who I was,
I really realised that i changed alot...
Like when i was this teenie weenie kiddo with little hair,
I was like a damm happy and cheerful kidd,
But now I guess I think too much most of the time and end up unhappy and stressed...
Well of course I have my happy times...
Anyway I needa get back to studying soon...

I'm falling apart without y

When I look at you---Miley Cyrus

We'll be a dream

2010-06-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Hehe,
I shall post more often!
To entertain timothy...
Tsk...
Well,I'll challenge myself then!

Today went to mug at Alex's house...
Mug Mug Mug...
Then suddenly Cheng Ding Challenged us to some ground stance thingy
It's supposed to be some Judo thingy...
Sort of like wrestling la but must kneel down,cannot stand up...
Like me and timothy owned Cheng Ding...
But I know that the reason I owned Cheng Ding was partially cause he scared...
The best one was when me and timothy played!
Wa,that one siao...
Damm long sia,like nearly equal strength...
Then timothy got the upper hand a few times,and i had to break free...
It was very tiring but FUN!!!
CRAZY...
Ate dinner part 1 at Alex's house...
Then ran after bus 315 and made it...
Went to ah ma house and eat dinner part 2...
Then chiong to tampines mrt to grab some stuff on behalf of my fren...
Reach home quite tired...
Still go facebook,
tsk...
Still needa mug tmr,
also need to go down to heart to heart carnival for awhile...
Hope that I can watch Toy Story 3 Tmr!!!

OH OH OH!!!
And I'm so in love with maltese and shin tzu!!!
I wanna get 1!!!Preferrably a few months old one!
But like quite ex leh...tsk,and thats not the problem...
Problem is parents dunno allow anot...
Haha...
MYEs coming soon...
Wish me Good Luck man!!!

We'll be a dream---We the kings, feat Demi lovato

You're my dream....

Ain't No Sunshine

2010-06-20T15:17:00.003+08:00

Life is not the same anymore!

Major Events thats happened in life!
LTC Camp a Kota tingi waterfall resort!
Group M!
MOSQUITOS ROCKS!!!!!!
Met many AWESOMEEE MOZZIES!
Miss being with them loads!!!

Then recently I had food poisoning and fever...
Had diarrhea and was vomitting alot...
Luckily food poisoning is much better now,
But I still have fever...
Haha...

Now,gotta prepare for MYEs,
Down to the last week already...
Must PIA PIA PIA!!!
MUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!
lol,wish me good luck...

It's only after I've lost the opportunity to give it a shot,
That I realised how important she is to me,
That I realised how special she is to me,
And Before I even knew what was happening,
Tears were trickling down my face,
Emptiness is inevitable I guess,
And I guess I have to live behind that mask of mine for a period of time,
To convince others that I'm happy,
Cause its selfish for me to be unhappy and affect others...
Ain't no sunshine~~~

What Hurts The Most

2010-05-14T22:10:00.003+08:00

Well this past few days have been pretty much screwed...
I m feeling fcking stressed for some reason...
Things are not going as expected...
I m not ready for anything...
Got second for 200m heats but then finals i got 6th...
But the 200m is nothing screwed la...
Whats really screwed is nothing,
But Me...
And I really have to thank my brothers who have stood alongside me,
No matter how screwed I am...
And I appreciate it...
And somehow i got really angry at 1 point of time,
and i pointed my middle finger at the person and even rolled my eyes walked away...
and I was like damm upset and distracted and nearly got into an accident...
Dunno wad i was doing...
Went to eat with a few frens after that...
and talked alot of rubbish and felt better...
went home with lots of thoughts in my head..
kept thinking abt y i did it but didnt come up with an answer...
and finally i fell asleep...
Woke up,
And didnt care abt the reason anymore...
Might have been too much pent up stress also...
But All I knew,was that I was in the wrong...
Tried looking for chances to apologise...
But I got really scared somehow...
Its really difficult to apologise face to face...
Well,Hope that I can do it soon...
Dun like things to turn sour and ugly...
Well and I m truly uber sorry to that person lah......

And thats juz 1 screwed thing in my life...
Of course there are gd things but pale in comparision to the screwed parts...
And Now listening to a song Chris intro-ed me
\
What Hurts The Most---Rascal Flatts

Broken

2010-05-09T15:37:00.003+08:00

Yessterday had chrystal training,
Some emotions management thingy,
learnt alot,played some basketball,and some new games,
But all in exchange for squash training...

and i only got 29points for NAPFA becuz of 2.4km )))):
Squash PT starting soon
and its on friday for the time being...
sian......

Broken---Sezairi Sezalil

Untitled

2010-05-04T19:40:00.005+08:00

Here to update again,
Squash is fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun!
And I got Squash Captain,Congrats to me,lol...
Just came back from white sands from buying some stuff...
Rushing my PI and my homework...
Hope that now i can go back down to activity more often to visit my "little brothers"
Shape up young ones,for I'll be back...

Untitled---Simple Plan

Fireflies

2010-03-14T15:11:00.003+08:00

Updatez
BOBO CHACHA!
My squash racket damm nice =DDD
Been playing squash for a few times and the game is FUN!!!
LOADS AND LOADS OF FUN!!!
But quite tiring also,
But its all worth it...

Sch is fun too!
Studying with frens and cracking jokes together...
Its nice =D
Needa be back to sch tmr for econs lecture,
LOL!
Hehe,Got loads of homework to finish too,
MUST CHIONG AR!!!
and like NAPFA COMING!!!
MUST TRAIN!!!
I must surpass my "limits"
For the sky hold no limits =DDD
Had outing to watch alice in wonderland with ruth,jue ying,kenneth,jarrell at TM on friday.
Like uber fun...
I came like last,super late...
then went in for the movie...
It was nice animations but the general plot was not that impressive...
After the movie we went to arcade...
Played alot of games and even challenged each other at games,
and 3 ppl ended up doing forfeits..
LMAO...
Then went for dinner at Sakae Sushi...
Then jeremy came and talked with us,though he nvr eat...
We spent quite some time talking abt lots of things...
then reached home at like 11plus...
Lol...

Will post sometime later...

原谅我

2010-02-25T20:16:00.001+08:00

Here to update...

Well,I've juz been back to sch recently to visit juniors,

Perfect

2010-02-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

13feb10
CNY eve....
Spent some time washing dad's car,
Then went to sports link to get a new shoe...
Its nice alright...
Haha,THis means I got 2 shoes for CNY :DDD
Lol,
But on the other hand 2 shoes of mine spoilt alr...then another 1 is spoiling
Like SIAN...
Then after that,
Went to century square to watch percy jackson and lightning thief with Jia cai...
Spastic...
DAMM Last minute decision sia...
then went to paternal grandma house for reunion dinner...
Then after that
Went to maternal grandma house for another reunion dinner...
And went back home...
Slept at 3am cuz needa shou sui...
Haha

14feb10
CNY And VALENTINE'S DAY
Woke up at 8plus...
Then bai nian to parents and got first ang bao of the day...
Hahaha,
But then i damm tired throughout the day...
So went around to paternal side relatives first...
Listened to grandma and grand aunt's conversation...
Then like dun understand alot of it cuz I dun understand alot of dialect...
So I tried to learn...
Picked up only a little...
Sian...
Then dozed off for a couple of minutes in the car...
After tat,Went to maternal side relatives to visit...
And then started on my tutorials...
Do until very tired so lie down on floor and fell asleep in grandma house...
Cant believe i fell asleep with no bloody fan or wind...
Woke up with so much sweat on me...
Then dota for awhile and sian diao...
Like no mood to do anything...
Maybe too tired lor......
Sianz...
Also No Valentine this yr cuz I didnt spot anyone
Haha,Then like even if spot also dunno them well enough to ask...
Haha,
And besides I think I too tired to go out...
Cuz My initial plan was to go out after I reached home...
Haha,
So maybe it was a blessing in disguise...

PERFECT---SIMPLE PLAN

Smile

2010-02-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

Today was MJC's last night of orientation...
Had alot of fun,
Made many frens...
But this would also mean its time to mug
YEAAAA
Let the Optimism run through my blood...
But like......
...
Its quite hard to be optimistic about mugging...
OMG...
LALALA...
Haha...
Well,Orientation was FFUUUUUUUUUUNNNN,
lol,
and by the last day,which is today,
Everyone was UBER ENTHU...
Haha,I was quite taken aback...
LOL!!!
Then after all these 3 days,
We emerged 5th in the competition among the houses,
Some ppl cried...
And after hearing the house captain's speech,
I almost cried too...
But then like so many people around me sia,
And then my OG is the Famous ALLL BOYS,NO GIRLS...(but 1 joined us today)
So i dun think i'm supposed to drop a tear,so i held it back...

With hope comes disappointment...

My orientation group is CALLISTO 4!!!
ALL BOYS NO GIRLS!!!Until today la...But not counted la...
So the fact that we were an all boys OG made us quite famous...
lmao...
Anyway I m really happy to be in Callisto 4!
Cuz deep from the bottom of my heart,
CALLISTO 4 IS THE BBEEEEEEEEEEEEESSST!!!!!!!
We fought,played,cheered hard...
and by the second day,some of us already lost our voice partially...
Apparently I was one of them and was popping lozenges like no ones business...
And the CALLISTO 4 everyone sees before them,
Would not have been if we didn't have such AWESOME OGLs...
And My AWESOME OGLs are probably one of the most AWESOME OGLs in Meridian!!!
HOT SIA!!!
And my AWESOME OGLs are:
Nizam,
James,
Miron,
Geraldine,
Chelsea...
They're COOL and they're HOT and they CAN'T BE STOPPED!!!
WOOOOOT!!!
They are so damm AWESOME!
Without them,CALLISTO 4 would probably have been less awesome then what we are now...
I must say a sincere THANK YOU VERY MUCH Nizam,James,Miron,Gerladine and Chelsea...
And i must say that,its actually our fault that we did not do well cuz its us who is performing,
But anyway,
I GAVE MY BEST SHOT!
And I'm SURE MANY PEOPLE IN CALLISTO 4 DID TOO!!!
AND SO I HAVE NO REGRETS!!!
WIN WITH DIGNITY!LOSE WITH HONOUR!

I AM PROUD TO BELONG TO CALLISTO 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEA!!!
Let the LEGEND Live on............

Smile---???(But i listen to the westlife version)

Here without you

2010-01-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

Whooooo...
Today first day of JC life...
In case some of u still dunno which JC i got into,
I got into MJC...
The way I discovered it damm funny lor...
It was like yesterday I was still slping
Then suddenly my phone rang...
It was marc...
Then i picked up and marc was like damm excited and asked me if I got in MJC...
Then i was like "Huh?Send out alr meh?"
It was like 7.15am then...
Then I checked while I was on the phone...
And found out I got into MJC...
*The following conversation is not exactly exactly as typed*
Me:"Oh my god,I got into MJC!!!"
Marc:"Congrats!!!*Screams* "
Me:"*Screams,LAUGHS* "
And marc got into TJC =)))
And I m uber elated to get into my first choice =)))
Then my mum came in,looking quite shocked...
Cuz I suddenly scream,
HAHA...
LAME SHIT...
Then my mum also very happy =)))
Then msg-ed my dad and he also very happy =)))
So its a happy story =)))))))
P.S: I received the sms at like 6.23am O.O

Then went sch with marc to collect our testimonial and CCA records on the same day
Cuz we very scared we cant get in first choice,
So we were prepared to appeal but in the end we dun need it...
But we went back to sch to collect it anyway...
Met Hwee young and Moses...
Then collected our stuff and followed moses to SAJC to hand up HIS appeal...
Then went out tgt...

TODAY,
First day of sch at MJC,
Like I slept at 9pm,
Then woke up at 11pm, and cannot go back to slp =_=
Then keep rolling abt until like 1am...
Finally fell asleep...
Woke up at 3am plus...and could not slp again,
So i rolled around again and fell asleep again...
Woke up at 5.15am and went to prepare to go to sch...
Took a damm long bathe,
Then chiong to sch...
Reached MJC at around 6.35am...
Then like everyone there were J2s So I dun dare go into the sch
Stayed at the bus stop until I saw some J1 walk in...then I also walk in...
Monkey see Monkey do...
Then like met many marists there...
And also met primary sch classmates calvin and johnson there,
saw SJAB fren jeremy too...
Haha,
Then went for many talks and settled with chicken rice for breakfast
The chicken rice is not bad man...
Then went for another talk...
Then went for lunch,
Ate Black pepper chicken chop...
Great taste with economic price=WORTH IT!!!
Haha,
Purchased some uniform...
Then went for talk...
And met up with marists and went home tgt...
LOL
Then went to Collect my new specs and cut my hair...
My hair actually not long lor...
But I still went to cut cuz too thick...
Then the barber screw up my fringe...
WTF...
ZZZZZZ
Sian diao...
LOL!!!
So thats done for now...

HERE WITHOUT YOU---3DOORS DOWN

Thunder

2010-01-21T23:49:00.003+08:00

Lets see
15jan'10,
We had ANCO SNCO+Officer BBQ and that was also the start of the chalet.
Quite alot of ppl nvr come...
But we still made the best out of it.
SO FUN!!!
Very FUnny also...
Then there was the AMAZING SKILL in fanning the fire
WIth a pathethic piece of plastic...
Dunno how he come up with so much wind one...
Lol...
Then they play mahjong until siao...
Then there was some great stuff I drank...
ULTIMATE SENSATION!!!
Until like late at night...
Still drinking...
By then I so bloated until I cant continue anymore...

Then 16jan,
Woke up at like 6plus with Zhan hui
Then we went to take bus and I took MRT...
Went back home then we went to sch for CCA MAZE...
Like most of the little boys super childish...
So I was going in for the parents...
Then band was playing in the canteen and I had to SHOUT over the music...
Like tiring sia...
Then went back home slept for 2 more hours,
Then went for grandma's birthday dinner...
Then returned to the chalet...Play mahjong,watch TV...
Then slept...
Uber tired sia...

17jan,
Woke up like Uber early...
Then wait for the rest to wake up...
Then we packed up and checked out...
Took shuttle bus to white sands and some of us settled for a Macs breakfast...
Then went shopping around white sands with pei ling and su min...
Shopping was like interesting at points and not so interesting at points...
But better than lying around at home doing nothing...
In fact quite entertaining...
Then took MRT home...

20th jan
Outing with MSHSJAB bros,including zhan hui...
Went to POMO and played pool for like 4hours...I tot it was 6 sia...
Very fun...and enjoyable...
Not too expensive too and mike paid for us...
Then we went mad jack for lunch and meeting...
The meeting was not very productive though...

Later on I shall be meeting Nigel and Daryl for lunch...
Then taking circle line down to sch...
Just to go down to observe activity
HEHEHE...
Better watch ur discipline......

THUNDER---BOYS LIKE GIRLS

Love story

2010-01-13T01:14:00.004+08:00

Wa piang...
Supposed to reach NYJC at 9.45am for open house with SJAB Brothers,
But in the end reach like 11.40am
Like nearly late for 2 hours...
Then like walk arnd with De xian for awhile
Met yi jing and andrew
and left the place...
Then we walked out to take Bus 105 to CJC...
Like NEARLY EVERYONE in the bus alighted at CJC...
Its like super crowded...
Cuz got alot of sch affiliated...

Then saw ivan and nick...and then went to makan tgt...
Walked arnd,See see look look...
Then planned to leave...
Then Poh Wei came
and then we talked for awhile la...
Then we went to the bus stop...
Like we were having arguments on where to go next...
Some of us wanted to accompany michael to go NJC open house...
but like we cant get in,only him...
Then some wanted to go cheng ding's house but he dun wan...
Then some wanted to go Alex house but he going out...
Then some wanted to play LAN but some dun wan...
Then in the end they settled for operation "Home sweet Home"
Like I sian diao,
and went back to CJC,
Saw my classmates and so stayed and chat...
then we went bishan
Arcade
and then saw some old frens...
Talked and played...
And then went out to eat with family...

Then uber tired...
Slept like before 11pm
and then I suddenly wake up for nothing...
So here I am...
Awake and Stunned...
SIan like hell...
later still waking up uber early...
We going SAJC first,
Then YJC,
Then MAYBE AJC
and then MJC...

I wonder if I'll survive later...
Like sianZ
Uber crazy...
I need a day out...
Any volunteers to play pool?
Any volunteers to run the whole east coast park?
Or basketball?
But one thing for sure,
There'll be another ice skating session for SJAB brothers...
I think we can be called a clique,
But somehow guys dun use that term often...
Bleh...
2days without work...
And its like I'm missing frens alr...
Sighs...
If I did sales I might not miss job,
CuZ sales ppl like always standing one...
promoters also the same...
But logistics are different...
Lol...

At least we have settled SOME plans for now...
one chalet+BBQ coming up and a KTV+Birthday coming up...
Not my Birthday of course...
My birthday has always been low profile...
What for let everyone know sia?
Nice friends will be concerned abt when ur birthday...
And they'll wish u happy birthday and even get u a present...
But presents aren't really impt although its nice to have them...
Its nice enough to have frens celebrating my birthday with me...
But its not THAT soon...
Yea,although its coming...
Haha...
I wanna go out badly with some ppl who i havent been out with for a long time...
Some ppl like Jia Cai...
But he like busy studying sia...
ZZZ
and he only free on weekdays
or maybe not free at all...
Maybe should organise another East Coast park outing...
HOHOHO...

Looking back on my previous 4years...
They seem so distant...
CHIMALOGY...
Shall continue this post when I get back home later...
Now its time to go back to dreamland...
LATERZ
HOHOHO

Now,back from the open houses alr...
Erm,
Early in the morning we went SAJC...
But not many of us interested in the JC...
So like only yanssen and cheng ding went to tour the sch,
While the some of the rest of us cabbed to YJC...
Apparently the some of us were me,marc,alex and yong zhi...
We were there to accompany alex,
But i feel that YJC open house the academic booth quite informative...
and the 2 councillors touring us were also very friendly...
Then like we missed 2shuttle buses to SRJC...
So like sian diao,
CuZ we wanted to take bus 81 from SRJC to go to MJC...
in the end we cabbed to MJC
and the taxi fare was like 14dollars+
EXPENSIVE...
Then walked around...
It was a totally different ambience...
And the houses were very bonded...
Went there and asked questions to one of the teachers or maybe VP(Idk)
He gave helpful answers,
And now I really wanna go there...
But then like...
Very fierce competition leh...
Quite alot of ppl wanna go there...
And like most of them do better than me...
So its like sian...
Dunno if I can make the mark...
Sighs...

LOVE STORY---TAYLOR SWIFT

New Perspective

2010-01-11T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today is the day of the release of the o lvl results
Woke up at around 8.25am,
Washed up and stuff,
then went to Alex house...
There we watched Tv and talked crap...

Then ate a very pasta lunch...
Took a lift from Alex's mom's car
and arrived at sch alittle too early...
SIANZ
Then sat through talks and stuff...
Then finally take results...
Wasn't great...
But yet it wasn't that bad...
kinda average but yet not up to satisfaction and expectations...
Too bad...
Life moves on...

Then went to macs for teabreak
and boarded bus to go alex house
when suddenly i rmb i needed to return some work related stuff...
So chiong down the bus and headed for Raffles City shopping mall...
Met with javier and bang ming and then returned our stuff
Then it was MRT straight back home...

Went to get dinner,
Then went out for a night run...
The scenary was rather nice
and then ate dinner...
Now still having headache on the 12choices...
ZZZ
tmr going NYJC open house with frens...
We'll see how it goes...

NEW PERSPECTIVE---PANIC AT THE DISCO

One For The Radio

2010-01-11T00:43:00.003+08:00

HOO HAA!!!
Last day of work was like erm, less than 1 hour ago...
Working was really an experience
and of course
there are some things i will miss
and some which i nvr will miss...
HAHA,
Similarly with Ppl working there...
Some whom i will miss loads
and some whom i nvr wanna see again...
LOL!
Made loads of new frens but forgot to ask for numbers from some =(
But i guess its ok...

So now,
Time to get serious...
No work=Time to work out...
No work=More time for CCA Meetings...
Oh and a reminder to mshsjab members that CCA MAZE is on 16thJan'10
Lets DOOOOMINATE!
No work=More time=Sports and Fun with frens =)))))
But sadly hols coming to an end soon...
Later going alex house play again...
Like at 10am in the morning...
HAHA
and happy birthday cheng ding...

Anyway,forgotten to post my new year resolutions
1)Give my 100% in everything that I WANT to do...
2)Get my weight to 52kg
3)Be able to access situations better and neutrally
4)Be calm and not so rash

ONE FOR THE RADIO---MCFLY

Here's another song for the radio

Life isn't fair for the people who care
Stick your nose in the air and thats how you go far,
So go tell your lovers,your fathers and brothers,
Your sisters and mothers how lucky they are

Light speed out of my mind,
I'm hurt but I'll be fine,
Put your fist in the air,
Raise your voice and declare,
Singing "We Don't care!"
WE DON'T CARE!
We don't care!
WE DON'T CARE!

So Here's another song for the radio,
And here's another line from the heart,
So don't pretend you hate us as you sing along,
Cause we all look the same in the dark

L.A temptations or music sensations,
There's great expectations that weigh on our heads,
So here's to the liars,who dream and conspire,
Against the admired,we hope you drop dead,

Light speed,out of my mind,
I'm hurt but I'll be fine,
Put your fist on ur chest,
Raise your voice and protest,
Singing "We don't care!"
WE DON'T CARE
We don't care,
WE DON'T CARE!

So Here's another song for the radio,
And here's another line from the heart,
So don't pretned you hate us as we sing our song,
Cause we all look the same in the dark,

Here's one for the radio,
Here's one for the radio,
Here's one for the radio,
Here's one for the radio,

So here's another song for the radio,
And here's another line from the heart,
So don't pretend you hate us when we sing our song,
Cause we all look the same in the dark

Here's another song for the radio,
And here's another line from the heart,
So don't pretend you hate us when you sing along,
Cause we all look the same in the dark,
Cause we all look the same in the dark,
We all look the same in the dark,
Cause we all look the same in the dark,
We all look the same in the dark

Your Guardian Angel

2009-12-21T00:52:00.004+08:00

Damm am I tired,
Well,
Job has begun,
Today is like the 4th day of work...
LOL!
Getting used to stuff,
Trying to be enthu but of course need to take a break...
If not i'll go crazy...
working is not exactly very entertaining,
HAHA
But I guess its an experience...
LOL!
TMR ITS MY DAY OFF,
HEHE,
So can slp as long as I want...
TIME TO BE A PIGGY,
OINKS...

Oh yea and I gotten over IT alr...
YIPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
I'm a freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee man...
LMAO!!!

Your Guardian Angel---The red jumpsuit apparatus

When I see your smile,
Tears run down my face,
I can't replace,
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out,
How this world turns cold,
And breaks through my soul,
And I know, I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one,

I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Its okay,
Its okay,
Its okay...

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing,
And stars are fallling all for us,
Days grow longer and night grows shorter,
I can show you, I'll be the one,

I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cause you're mine,
You're mine,
Mine...
My true love,My whole heart,
Please don't throw that away,

Cause I'm here,For you...
Please don't walk away,
And please tell me you'll stay.....
Stay.........

Use me as you will,
Pull my strings just for thrill,
And I know i'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning gray,

I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever,
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven,

I will never let you fall,
I'll stand up with you forever

Life After You

2009-12-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

Finally,
After days of rest,
I decided to post again...
Last sunday,13dec2009
Had ANCO outing again...
We went to sing KTV again,
But this time at Topone KTV,
The price was rather high,
But we had free flow of ice drinks,
So I guess its worth it,
Whats more,
WE SANG FOR 7HOURS!!!
OMG,
It sounds so long but it actually felt ok...
HAHA,
In fact we did not manage to finish all the songs we wanted to sing
O_O...
This time round,
Quite a number of Hokkien and GuangDong songs appeared,
LMAO!!!
Apparently the older generations were enjoying that part...
HAHAHAHAHA,
Had alot of fun...
Kenneth,Ai suan,Wei qiang,Ying ying,siang ning,Zhan Hui,Pei Ling,Aaron
They were present during Ktv session...
Then I forgotten who found a SMOKE button...
And then some ppl kept spamming it...
They smoke smelt utterly revolting...
And then Zhan Hui told me that it smelt like honey -_-...
Then we also played with the light effects...
Seriously,
This is like a UBER FUN KTV SESSION!!!
There were a few songs that we sang until everyone very HIGH!!!
CRAZY!
The most memorable would still be wang fei by xiao jing teng...
LOL
ROOCKERZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Then Arens came and met us,
He wasn't really feeling well,
Went to Iluma Arcade...
Play awhile...
Then De xian came...
Then we went to some coffee shop opposite iluma to eat dinner...
Shan't elaborate on the details,
Cuz its rather Epic...
LOL...
Then after dinner,Went to walk walk around Bugis junction...
Haha,
Talked alot of crap too...
Then finally we ended the outing at the mrt station...
Then took mrt with Arens...
He really seemed quite sick...
Hopes he gets well soon...

Song of the post,

Life After You---Daughtry

Ten miles from town,
I just broke down,
Spitting out smoke on the side of the road,
I'm out here alone,
Just trying to get home,
To tell you I was wrong but you already know,
Believe me I won't stop at nothing,
To see you so I've started running,

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter,
As long as I'm laughing with you,
I'm thinking that All that still matters is love ever after,
After the life we've been through,
Cause I know there's no life after you,

Lasst time we talked,
The night that I walked,
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind,
I must have been high,
To say you and I,
Weren't meant to be and just wasting my time,
Oh,why did I ever doubt you,
You know that I would die here without you,

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter,
As long as I'm laughing with you,
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after,
After the life we've been through,
Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I,Right or wrong,there's no other one,
After this time I spent alone,
Its hard to believe that a man with sight can be so blind,
Thinking about the better times,I must've been out of my mind,
So I'm running back to tell you,

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter,
Without you god knows what I'd do,Yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter,
As long as I'm laughing with you,
I'm thinking that All that still matters is love ever after,
After the life we've been through,yeah
Know there's no life after you,

Know there's no life after you,
Know there's no life after you,
Know there's no life after you,
Know there's no life after you,
Know there's no life after you,
Know there's no life after you,
Know there's no life after you,Yeah

All or nothing

2009-12-04T01:17:00.004+08:00

Now its freaking late...
Freaking sleepy now...
But shall still finish this blog post...
Lets recap on 29nov to 30nov...

Ai suan's bdae chalet...
She asked me to go like months ago...
Then I said ok
And then suddenly corp anni pop up 2weeks ago?
So bo bian cant go corp anni cuz I said I going alr...
In the morning,
Me,Zhan Hui,Benjamin,Cheng ding and tim
went Hq count money,
Count until fingertips all black,
So dirty...
Got 2 cuts from this count-money-session...
1 from pulling at a sharp corner of the can lid,
another from jabbing the pen too hard at the lid,
Causing the pen to aim my own hand accidentally,
-_-...
Lame,I know...
Then went pool with Arens and Zhan Hui...
Then rushed down to Jurong East Mrt...
Those 2 insisted on cabbing to cheverons
But we ended up walking there...
Firstly by going to IMM,
Then we asked for directions at IMM...
Then we tot we got lost when actually we were on the right track...
LOL....
Then we arrived...
And suddenly I realised something,
I forgotten that dress code was smart casual...
DAMM IT!
And I was wearing a PT-kit...
Carrying a bag which looks similar to a camping bag...
-_-
So i practically looked like I was going for camp...
Then ate the food,
Changed into something more casual but still pathethic...
Then played cards like siao,until i damm sian...
dun wan play alr,
Den go watch the water in the swimming pool
Creating water ripples...
Then alex joined in the water ripples session...
And then some ppl came in to play water...
Disturbing my ripples so i got bored and went outside to talk with alex...
Talk alot of rubbish,
Haha...
Then time to sing song...
SING SING SING...
Then photos eat cake...
Look for "missing" chairs...
Watch alittle tv...
Went upstairs to play mahjong...
Then pei ling and siang ning learnt to play...
The mahjong games would probably be the most memorable ones i played
Its like some super mahjong comedy or something...
With Pei ling's exaggerating reaction when she gets a tile...
And her attempts to flip her tiles all together...
Ying Ying giving me 8 tiles and she take 16...
Pei ling's super loud "PENG!!!!!"
and her being unable to differentiate "CHI" and "PENG" initially

All together,
Its HILARIOUS...
But its utterly ridiculous too...
I was quite pissed off when this happened too often...
Played till 4am...
EVERYONE was tired except 1 person
PEI LING!
CRAZY SIA!
Shes like some MAHJONG ADDICT...
WIth mahjong she like so JING SHEN!!!
Then she dun feel tired one...
Its like WTF!
MADNESS!!!
Then went downstairs to slp...
woke up to see Arens leave,
Locked the door and went to slp on couch while alex on mattress,
The Couch was UBER COLD!!!
Dunno how Arens slept there...
I was huddled up within minutes...
Then slept till quite late...
LOL,
Went to pack up,and checked out,
Then took bus to Cdans
Bowled and Alex got most points...
LOL

Song of the post is All or nothing by Theory of deadman
Will post lyrics next time,
Now must slp tmr need wake up early...
CIAOS

ALL OR NOTHING---THEORY OF A DEADMAN

When I first saw you standing there
You know was a little hard not to stare,
So nervous when i drove you home,
I know being apart's a little hard to bear,
Send some flowers to your work and home,
So that I'd have you in my arms again,
We kissed that night before I left still now,
It was something I could never forget,

You got all that I need...

We're looking at all or nothing,
Babe its you and I,
(With you)I know that I'm good for something
So lets go and give it a try,
We've got our backs against the ocean,
Its just us against the world,
We're looking at all or nothing,
Babe its you and I,
We're looking at all or nothing,
Babe its you and I,

Lets take a chance go far away today,
And never look back again,
Since I said I loved you in Las Vegas
Its never been the same since then,

You've got all that I need...

We're looking at all or nothing
Babe its you and I
(With you)I know that I'm good for something
So lets go and give it a try,
We've got our backs against the ocean
Its just us against the world,
We're looking at all or nothing
Babe its you and I
We're looking at all or nothing
Babe its you and I...

This is it,
Nothing to hide,
One more kiss,
Never say goodbye,
This is it,
Baby you are all mine...

We're looking at all or nothing
Babe its you and I,
I know that i'm good for something,
So lets go and give it a try,
We've got our backs against the ocean
Its just us against the world

We're looking at all or nothing,
Babe its you and I,
(With you)I know that I'm good for something,
So lets go and give it a try,
We've got our backs against the ocean
Its just us against the world,
We're looking at all or nothing
Babe its you and I,
We're looking at all or nothing
Babe its you and I...

Babe its you and I

Lovedrunk

2009-11-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

Today early morning,
Woke up to see off my mum,sis,Aunts,uncles,Cousins,Grandpa and grandma
LOL,
But they took too long to check in and my dad had to leave,
So did I...
So I woke up so early without completely fufiling my objective......

Then received msg from zhan hui to go gift hunting
Then we met at Vivo at 12pm...
It was a long way there...
Walked cluelessly from shop to shop
And did not find a suitable present...
Then we suddenly got an idea and went somewhere to get the present...
Then went bugis to get wrappings,
Took MRT then to EXPO to meet De xian...
Then we went to Sitex to look around...
LOL,
Its VERY CROWDED...
Squeezed our way through...
Getting bumped and bumping others

Finally we went out,
With MANNNNNNY Flyers in hand
Took bus 38 to Tampines interchange,
and walked to tampines one
Then we went to Kimgary to eat early dinner...
It was fairly expensive...
After dinner
we went around tampines one,
Walking aimlessly and talking crap...
LOL,
and then we parted,
Although I was full,
I still asked my dad to cook my share of porridge...
And tat was stupid...
Cuz I felt very full at the end....
LOL,

Now this post's song shall be

LOVEDRUNK---Boys like girls

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you,oh, so bad it hurt
But girl,
in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
forever is over
We used to kiss all night,
now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying,
say hello then goodbye
There's just one thing
would make me say
I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
but now it's over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
forever is over
We used to kiss all night,
now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying,
say hello then goodbye
There's just one thing
would make me say
I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
but now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab '
cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
forever is over
We used to kiss all night,
now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying,
say hello then goodbye
There's just one thing
would make me say
I used to be love drunk,
but now I'm hungover
I love you forever,
but now it's over

Now its over,
Still taste it on my tongue,
Now its over.

Crazy

2009-11-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

Well,
I'm juz going to blog abt today...
Cuz the previous few days were UBER BORING...
It was juz running,basketball,swimming,computers and TV...
So sian...
Maybe 21nov was quite ok cuz i watched the marist's dance auditions...
LOL
It was definitely amusing but a nice attempt though...
I liked the slow motion push ups the best though...
Haha...

OKAY...
Lets get back to TODAY,
ITS SJAB FLAG DAY!!!
But of all days,
A Wednesday?
Its like a working day and its so sian...
Besides we feel a little guilty delaying ppl from going to work...
Anyway,
Majority of the Passer-bys were considerably generous
and,ya lor...
Then I came upon this old man...
Who reacted very aggressively when I asked for a donation...
In fact,
He tried to Hit me or the tin can...I not very sure..
But 1 thing for sure...
He attempted an assualt...
Well,
I was taken aback.
But managed to react quickly enough to dodge his blow...
I could feel a sudden rush of violent intent...
and discontent aroused in me.......
In fact I was fuming deep inside,
But I juz smiled...
And then I heard him say alot of dialect...
though I only heard 2words clearly : "KIAM PA"
Well,
Wad did I do wrong?
I dun really noe,
I'm juz doing a part for SJAB and my corp and someone's trying to attempt an assualt...
However
I did consider the fact that he might have been crazy or poorly educated...
But I was unhappy and Angry for the rest of the day...
Then become very sian...
But these are juz assumptions and there are no proof to it...

Another case would be an uncle selling toys...
In the morning,
He told us to stay away from his stall cuz he dun wan us to affect his customers
We understood perfectly and did not disturb him...
Then when a CERTAIN sch came,
I told that CERTAIN sch to stay away...
Then 1 guy did not listen...
And made the uncle mad...
Well,I understand y his angry and the reason to be angry is reasonable
Then he took pics and threatened to call the police...
Heres where the prob comes...
He took pics with Our corp inside also...
Now this was problem,
I dun wan stuff to go wrong for our corp when we did nothing wrong...
So I went to clarify with him lor...
Ok la,although the uncle not very happy...
LOL,But we also cant blame the uncle right...
I'm sure he was a nice guy =)

Then I was doing flag day,
Was bowing until very low and saying "thank you,Have a nice day =)"
ANd even bowing and thanking ppl for donating...
It was EXHAUSTING...
But At least the process was fruitful and it was gd to noe that kind ppl still exist.
Morever,
I met new friends...
1 guy was an adult,
He was a very friendly guy and we chatted quite alot...
Another was a girl who was same aged as me...
Apparently she was selling some stuff for a company called beyond beauty...
LOL,Unfortunately I wasn't able to buy any of the company's promotion
So PPL OUT THERE,
Do go down to Bedok interchange and take a look =)

Well and making these 2 frens is wad made this year's flag day most memorable
And also becuz I was super angry on this flag day...
Yea...
And the song for today is

CRAZY---SIMPLE PLAN

Tell me what's wrong with society,
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III
No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?
Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to shareI guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Stepping back into life

This I promise you

2009-11-21T18:36:00.002+08:00

Juz came back from HQ not long ago...
Went there to spectate dance auditions for ZPN...
Together with Joson,Yan Hui,Jing wei...
Our dance was hilarious and rather entertaining,
Then saw Ting xin,Aaron,Poh wei and pei ling...
LOL
Then ting xin keep disturbing my hair...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
BULLY! :P
Then come home click facebook games,
-_-'''

17nov'09
LEAVERS CEREMONY!~
In sch hall,
SCH UNIFORM,
SCH CATERER FOOD...
I m speechless,
Took pics,
Collect stuff,
Then headed for Alex's house to stay over...
VERY FUN!
Play bridge and bridge and bridge...
SIAO one
THen talked with the rest abt,erm...SOMETHING,
Until like 3am...
LOL!
Then sleep-shouted...
Although I wasnt dreaming...
LOL

18nov'09
Left alex's house by 9am,
Went to Eunos CC with marc,tim,michael,cheng ding
Played badminton...
LOL,
Then went to macs for lunch,
Then chiong basketball after I reached home...
Got muscle ache...zzz

19nov'09
Went out to the street soccer court known as THE CAGE
Was rather lost...
LOL
But in the end My frens found me and brought me there...
Then went for a game of soccer,
HEHE,
Scored quite a number of goals although its been a long time since I played...
HAHA

20nov'09
Went back corp,
Collected tin cans for flag day,
Then went out to eat with lester,Yanssen,Marc,Shaun chew and Aloysious
At PIzza hut,
LOL
Then went Grandma house to MAPLE!!!
HEHEHEHEHAHAHA,
MAPLE FEISTA!!!

This I promise you---N'SYNC

Maybe

2009-11-17T12:41:00.003+08:00

Finally,Its been a couple of days since O lvls ended
What now?
WORK WORK WORK,
TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN
Time to go CRAAAAAZY
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
But then something happened...
And it may slow me down,
zzz
Lets recap

13nov'09
End of O lvls,
Squadmates and I went down to observe activity...
Then went to kallang leisure park with moses,marc,tim,yongzhi,michael and joson...
Then went bowling,arcade and ice skating...
Quite fun,
Then watch ppl fall and fall...
Quite funny
Then when we left...
Ran to bus stop...
Through the pouring rain...
COLD COLD RAIN
And the bus took freaking long to come...zzz
Then went ah ma house...
LOL

14nov'09
MARC'S B'DAE
Morning met at dhoby ghaut
then was waiting for cheng ding
So we went Zone X
Play dancing one
zzz
Quite tiring...
Very weird also...
LOL
Then got ppl looking zzz
Super embarassing...
Then went to cathy and watch 2012...
ITS A NICE MOVIE
And I think the animation was gd too...
Rather touching too
I teared alittle at the end,
LOL!
This movie brings out the difference between humane and inhumane
Quite nice :)
Lol...

15nov'09
SLACK DAY...
Seriously nothing to do...
Went for morning jog,
Breakfast,
Read NEW MOON,
Swim
then STONE...
SLp Slp SLp...
Dunno wad to do...
STUN!
Then go ah ma house...
LOL
Must find some things to do...
zzz

16nov'09
Went for job interview...
I was like stunned when I realised its juz like 2 questions
And then bye bye...
Like...Nothing to say sia
lol
Sianz
Then saw some other marists at the interview,
LOL
Then went basketball,

Today,Later gonna go repair badminton racket and go Leavers ceremony...
Sian
Anyway,
The gd thing is we going to stay at alex's house :)
COOL...
Haha
And the song of the post is Maybe by secondhand seranade...

MAYBE---Secondhand seranade

Didn't you want to hear
The sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
The expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
And I don't think that I
Have the strength
To let you go

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe,
That everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
And I'm here to sing
About the things that mattered
About the things that made us feel alive for so long
About the things that kept you by my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday,
I promise I'll be gone
And someday,
I might even sing this song
To you,
I might even sing this song,
to you
to you
And I was crying alone tonight
And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it Better than it ever was
So just come back I'll make it Better than it ever was

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Maybe it's just me,
Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did,
wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye,
and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Live Goes on,
Cause it has to.......

Far away

2009-11-09T12:23:00.003+08:00

Last week of O lvls alr...
And then its PARTY TIME!
WOOTS...
But that'll have to wait...
Having an outing with squadmates on friday...
HEHE,But we're still unsure where to go...zzz
SIANZ...
So many things I want to do...But yet hols is so short...zzz
Theres Work,Judo,Guitar lessons,Language lessons and etc.
Like very difficult to juggle also...
zzz
In the meantime,
End of O lvls mean that I can go back to corp more often...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
BUCK UP!!!Keep the enthusiasm high...
Time to snap out of ur dreamland and come back to reality

FAR AWAY---NICKELBACK

This time,
This place,
Misused,
Misplaced,
Too long,
Too late,
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance,
Just one breath,
Just in case there's just one left,
Cause you know,
You know,
You know,

I love you,
I have loved you all along,
I miss you,
Been far away for far too long,
I keep dreaming if you'll be with me and you'll never go,
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore,

On my knees,
I'll ask,
Last chance for one last dance,
Cause with you,
I'll withstand,
All of it to hold your hand,
I'd give it all,
I'd give for us,
Give anything but I won't give up,
Cause you know,
You know,
You know,

I love you,
I have loved you all along,
I miss you,
Been far away for far too long,
I keep dreaming if you'll be with me and you'll never go,
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.

So far away,
Been far away for far too long,
So far away,
Been far away for far too long
But you know,
You know,
You know,

I wanted,
I wanted you to stay,
Cause I needed,
I need to hear you say,

I love you,
I have loved you all along,
I forgive you,
Been far away for far too long,
So keep breathing cause I'm not leaving you anymore,
Believe it,Hold on to it,never let me go,

Keep breathing cause I'm not leaving you anymore,
Hold on to it,never let me go
Keep breathing cause I'm not leaving you anymore,
Hold on to it,Never let me go

Life,Goes on...

Best in me

2009-10-04T00:54:00.004+08:00

Ok,
Here to update...
Erm,
Where do I start...
Hmmmm...
So many things happened...

Erm,
PE had been fun recently...
Especially the game of Captain's ball with my team...
Wad an unexpected combination of players...
With David,Mervin,Wilson,Daryl and Nigel...
Straight winning streak...
But it was broken by a draw initiated from Yong jia's team...
But we won them in the rematch...
I could sense each of our determination
and it resulted in a little violence(NOT ME) but still quite ok...
Anyway it was a friendly match...
Totally changing strategies during the match...
So FUN!!!

O lvls are coming
This means time to cut down the fun...
MUGGER MOOD ACTIVATED
Haha...

Best In Me------Blue

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine,
You touched my hand and I knew that this was gonna be our time,
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling,
I don't wanna spend a moment apart,

Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
Thats why I'm by your side,
Thats why I love you

Everyday that I'm here with you I know that it feels right,
I just got to be near you every day and every night,
And you know that we belong together,
It just had to be you and me,

Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
Thats why I'm by your side,
Thats why I love you

And you know we belong together,
It just had to be you and me

Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
Thats why I'm by your side

Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
Thats why I'm by your side,
Thats why I love you

Baby,
Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
Thats why I'm by your side,
Thats why I love you

Mary Jane

2009-08-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

Cant believe It
I m destroyed...
Not on the outside...
But from the inside...........
How very pathetic...
Purely pathetic.......
Pictures and moments flash through my head...
Tears well up in my eyes.........
Pretending to be fine,
Faking a smile...
Faking a laugh......
Just to reassure the people around me......

I m now like a glass bottle...
Others are like plastic bottles...
They fall from height and stays intact...
Able to get up again...
But when I fall from height...
I shatter into many small pieces...
And it would take a long time to piece me back together with super glue...
But wad are the chances?
Or I'll have some missing fragments...
And never be whole again...........
Well,I guess thats too bad for me...

On the other hand,prelims coming in 2 weeks...
Gotta work hard...

Emotional Chaos has befallen...
Let the emotions take over.........

There is a wonderful song which goes with the emotion...
And its lyrics are filled with meaning
and may even be applied to myself...
Here goes

Mary Jane------Click Five

I didn't cry the day you moved away,
I didn't think that I will feel this pain,
Until I saw the stranger that was you,
Whatever happened to our innocence,
And that something you said about being friends,
Tell me how,
Help me say the words out loud,

Could it be,
That nothings' gonna change,
Cause time has got a way of taking back,
Everything you thought you had,
Can you see,
The girl you used to be,
The one I lost when I let go of you,
Oh whatever happened to,
Mary Jane

I need to wake up from this state of mind,
The situation is the staying kind,
I got to get your memory out of my head,
Would you catch me if I had a fall,
Would you even find the time for that at all,
Tell me how,
Help me say those words out loud,

Could it be,
That nothings' gonna change,
Cause time has got a way of taking back,
Everything you thought you had,
Can you see,
The girl you used to be,
The one I lost when I let go of you,
Oh whatever happened to,
Mary Jane

Cause time has taken back,
Everything I thought we had,
Tell me how,
Help me say the words out loud,

Could it be,
That nothings' gonna change,
Cause time has got a way of taking back,
Everything you thought you had,
Can you see,
The girl you used to be,
The one I lost when I let go of you,
Oh whatever happened to,
Mary Jane

Oh whatever happened to,
Mary Jane

True...

2009-08-02T18:58:00.003+08:00

Well,
Its been sometimes since I've updated...
Lets talk about something very old...
POP
Finally passed out...
Kinda happy...
Took alot of photos with my squad and the cadets...
I'll miss them...

And now I guess its time to train in the midst of my studies...
Lets do some intensive physical training
To drown off all that misery
Haha...

And the song of this post is...

TRUE~~~Ryan Cabrera
I won't talk,
I won't breathe,
I won't move
Till you finally see,
That you belong to me,
You might think
I don't look,
But deep inside
The corner of my mind,
I'm attached to you,
I'm weak its true,
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer,
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster,

I've waited all my life,
To cross this line,
To the only things thats true
So I will not hide,
Its time to try,
Anything to be with you,
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know,
What you do,
Everytime,
You walk into the room,
I'm afraid to move,
I'm weak its true,
I'm just scared to know the ending,
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life
To cross this line,
To the only things thats true,
So I'll not hide,
Its time to try,
Anything to be with you,
All my life I've waited,
This is true

I know when I go,
I'll be on my way to you,
The way thats true

I've waited all my life,
To cross this line,
To the only things thats true,
So I'll not hide,
Its time to try,
Anything to be with you,
All my life I've waited,
This is true

想太多

2009-07-17T22:31:00.003+08:00

School was horrible today...
Feel damm lethargic today...
Since the first period...
I was like going to explode...
Felt a huge surge of heat in me...
Felt like destroying the wall right beside me with my bare hands...
ARGHHHH!!!
I also not sure why...
zzz

Came back home,
Did the usual stuff...
Then was still feeling lethargic and miserable
So decided to go for a run...
Ran to Expo,
Then went to a super huge conjunction near a newater plant,
Then crossed a road,
Then ran a round around the perimeter of Expo and expo mrt....
Nearly got lost...zzz
Then ran back home......
Frog jumped up flights of stairs,
But still not good enough...
Ran for I think around 40minutes?
And I dunno how far I ran... -_-

But after all,came back feeling alot better....

Anyway,
Heres another nice song

想太多~~~李玖哲

你笑着说，
他是朋友，
但你眼中太温柔，
我的不安，
那么沉重，
只有你不懂，

他霸占了你的心中，
属于我的角落，
所以你说，
我们，
不是你和我，

是我想太多，
你总这样说，
但你却没有，
真的心疼我，
是我想太多，
我也这样说，
这是唯一能安慰我，
的理由

他霸占了你的心中，
属于我的角落，
所以你说，
我们，
不是你和我，

是我想太多，
你总这样说，
但你却没有，
真的心疼我，
是我想太多，
我也这样说，
这是唯一能安慰我
的理由

我想我没有，
错怪了什么，
虽然你不说，
或许错在我，
太晚我才懂，
爱了你太多，

是我想太多，
你总这样说，
但你却没有，
真的心疼我，
是我想太多，
我也这样说，
这是唯一能安慰我
的理由

Status:疯

Forever Love

2009-07-16T17:49:00.007+08:00

Lets see...Wad happened today?
Had PE today,
Basketball all the way,
Slightly off form today although quite accurate at times...
Then lessons...
Chiong English summary...
zzz
Then Chemistry test next Monday...
Geog test tomorrow...
Sianz......
RECESS...
But Cafe not opened today...
zzz
So sian,
Decided not to eat...
Lessons again
Then dismissal bell rang...
Lunched with a couple of friends,
Then talk about our P1 days...
Then someone damm funny,
Say the catered chicken rice we ate back then was from Jacks Place
It was like WTF...
None of us ever heard of Jacks place selling chicken rice...
LOL...
Then we were all laughing like mad...
And we kept suaning him...
LMAO......
Then Bio lesson...

My dear cadets and NCOs,
Its time to buck up.........
U guys have been too slack for too long..................
And its time we brought up the discipline standard to my satisfication...
And I wont tolerate idiotic behaviour,
Cause if u want to act like one,
I'll treat u like one.....
Although my POP parade is coming,
I'll be back(if I can)............
And if discipline is still at ur PATHETHIC level,
U noe wad will happen...............
Find back the Bloody enthusiasim that u have lost,
For thats ur survival pack in this warzone...
U guys have such great potential...
But yet u guys do not use it......
So now its time to unleash ur potential...
加油,I'll be watching you guys.....................

Just suddenly into this song recently,
Or rather OBSESSED over it...
HAHA...Lol,
Enjoy

FOREVER LOVE~~~王力宏

爱你不是因为你的美而已，
我越来越爱你，
每个眼神触动我的心，
因为你让我看见 forever，
才了解自己，
未来这些日子，
要好好珍惜，

爱我有些痛苦，
有些不公平，
如果真的爱我，
不是理所当然的决定，
感到你的呼吸在我耳边，
像微风神奇，
温柔的安抚，
我的不安定，

所以我要，
每天研究你的笑容，
Oh...
多么自然，

Forever Love,
Forever Love,
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你，
从今以后，你会使所有，
幸福的理由

爱情是场最美最远的旅行，
沿途雨季泥泞，
偶尔阻碍我们的前进，
感到你的体温在我怀里像阳光和旬，
巧妙的融化我的不安定，

不可思议，
证明我爱你的理由，
Oh...
多么自然，

Forever Love,
Forever Love,
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你，
从今以后，你会使所有，
幸福的理由

你感动的眼睛，
我沉默的声音，
仿佛就是最好的证明，
就让我再说一次，
I Love You,
Oh...
直到永远，
Oh...

Forever Love,
Forever Love,
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你，
从今以后，你会使所有，
幸福的理由

Forever Love,
Forever Love,

Forever Love......

Status: Seriously Serious(HAHAHAHA)

Love

2009-07-06T09:42:00.006+08:00

Well,
First time officially trying to jio someone(After O's)...
Rejected(Before O's,HAHAHAHAHA)
Hmmmm,
Initially
I was heart broken
Crestfallen,
Devastated...
Sitting on the bed,
Thinking about all the times we shared,
Tear drops slid down my face..........

But after I dunno how long,
I thought about our present situation...
And a great sense of warmth surged through me...
And I no longer felt sad...
But happy...
I was happy for her having sort out her feelings...
I guess,
Loving somebody does not necessarily means to be together with that person...
But to be able to feel sad and happy for her at her situation
And even to say share her joys and feelings...
Without asking anything in return =)
Till the day someone comes and replaces her place in my heart...

Although its still hurts occasionally,
In the end,
I'm still happy,
Her smile is enough to keep me content...

Then after the thinking,
I couldn't sleep so revised geog until 4am...
zzz
And finally slept
HAHAHAHAHA

Well,
I m sure some of u might think I've probably burnt my brain or something...
But I dun care
For this is how I truly feel about this situation and thats that...
In fact I find greater joy in studying now...
Which is like totally SHOCKING
HAHAHAHAHAHA =D
Lol
This is the first time I've ever loved someone so deeply...
Well,
Its too bad...
I guess this is how this fairytale ends
looks like not all fairytales have happy endings...
But learning to fall is all part of life...
And so lemme share with u this song...

LEARNING TO FALL~~~Boys like girls

Today is the day,
The worst day of my life,
You're so content it hurts me,
I don't know why,
The cost of misery,
Is at an all time high,
I keep it hidden,
Close to the surface in sight,

I'm learning to fall,
I can hardly breathe,
When I'm going down don't worry about me,
Don't try this at home,
You said you don't see,
I don't want to know that you know,
It should have been me,

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie,
He doesn't catch you like I do,
And you don't know why,
You change your clothes and your hair,
But I can't change your mind,
Oh I'm uninvited,
So unrequited now,

I'm learning to fall,
I can hardly breathe,
When I 'm going down don't worry about me,
Don't try this at home,
You said you don't see,
I don't want to know that you know,
It should have been me

Words screaming in my head,
Why did you leave,
I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him,
When it should have been,it should have been me,

Today is the day,
The worst day of my life....

I'm learning to fall,
I can hardly breathe,
When I'm going down don't worry about me,
Don't try this at home,
You said you don't see,
I don't want to know that you know,
It should have been me,

I'm learning to fall,
I can hardly breathe,
When I'm going down don't worry about me,
Don't try this at home,
You said you don't see,
I don't want to know that you know,
It should have been me,

I'm learning to fall,
I can hardly breathe,
When I'm going down don't worry about me,
Don't try this at home,
You said you don't see,
I don't want to know that you know,
It should have been me....

Status:Happily sadistic...Embrace the devil

Lets update

2009-07-01T15:53:00.004+08:00

Updatez...
Yesterday was sianz.........
Tuition tuition tuition......
zzz
Like damm tired la...
zzz
Thank you to all those who showed ur care and concern to me...
Especially Ai suan(Mdm),Justin(Sir),ying ying,Jia Cai(Sir),Joson and many more...
But
Sometimes things are not that simple.............
And I m sorry to say that I cannot stop emo-ing
This would take time.........................
But dun worry...
I m studying real hard and whether I am emo anot does not affect my studies...

Today,
VERY TIRED...
zzz
First 2 period Chemistry...
Ok la...
Just copying stuff for SPA skill 3 test...zzz
Then came bio,
Study Mutations and stuff and quite funny la...
Maths,
Went through the calculus worksheet on differentiation...
Then recess.......
Damm sian.......................
Nothing to do......
Want to go SJAB store but cant find the quartermaster....
zzz
So walk around the school lor...........
zzz
Then went to open class.....
And some stupid thing happened but its just damm stupid...
Then double period of SS
and then last period was english..........
After class...
Was like stone at my seat...........................................
So many things about all that have happened were running through my mind....
And I was thinking of alot of bad things which may happen in future...
zzz
Then went to return classkey......
Met friends at the bus stop
Went for lunch together....
Mrt home.......
zzz
Exhausted...
But still need come back home chiong Homework...
Must buy ALOT of coffee later......
zzz
Still need go tuition somemore.....
zzzzzzzzzzzz

"I am sorry, ********"

Status:Emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo...(Exhausted)

Sch reopening

2009-06-29T19:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,
Was chief comissioner badge presentation...
and also the launching of the CPB management system...
Arrived at Hq at like 11.55am...
Lol...
Then all I was trying to do was...
AVOID
AVOID
AVOID...
But it all FAILED!!!
No matter how hard I try,
I just keep meeting her.......
zzz
Then at the start of the ceremony I was like emo......
Staring at the ceiling tiles...
Staring at the floor tiles...
Studying the floor tiles,looking for a pattern......
Rejecting all efforts to start conversations by my squadmates.......
until further on when distributing the Chief com badges,
I decided to pretend to look ok...
Successful.....
...
Then after receiving the badge...
Nearly got hit by a friend/mdm on the head,
juz becuz of "that" face I showed...
zzz
Dodged quickly and knocked into zheng an accidentally...
zzz

Then went to eat,eat and eat
and congratulate some ppl...
Still avoiding avoiding avoiding...
Failed at some attempts but still managed to avoid...
Then when leaving and changing clothes...
was AVOIDING AVOIDING AVOIDING again...
BUT
COMPLETE FAILURE...
zzz
...
Nothing seems to come out of my mouth,
And naturally,
I turn away...
She too,
turns away................
I guess,
this really isn't the time to talk......
I guess,
we really aren't ready yet.......

SAD SAD SAD......
"I am sorry, ********"

Today,
School reopen
zzz
Very tired
Gd thing that maths teacher never come so got 2 free periods
Own time own target revision...
Was on the verge of sleeping............
Keep dozing off
and nodding...
Damm sian la
zzz

Well,
This is all becoming very emotionally stressful and torturous......
And the only way to relieve off this pain......
Is to step back onto the path of the lunatic..........
Intensive PT(Physical Training) Everyday...
But its been a long while since I stepped on this path...
So I guess I'll have to start from scratch again......
The transformation from normal to lunatic and lunatic to normal
is a very painful experience.............
And once this transformation in me has completed,
I dunno wad will happen.................
Lets just hope that the antidote comes soon enough......
Lets just hope...........

"I am sorry, ********"

Status:Emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo(Eccentric)

I am Sorry,********

2009-06-27T20:29:00.004+08:00

Feeling Horrible First thing in the morning...
Lets not talk about what I did today...
But rather How I feel.............

REGRET!!!
Guilt!!!
APOLOGETIC!!!
Sadness!!!

These main for feelings was what I felt today......
And what was I like when I wasn't studying?
LOST
Totally lost...
Like a someone standing in galaxies of stars,
Not knowing which one to follow..........
I never knew that this story was so important to me..........

Regret engulfed my soul......
Why was I so STUPID to have came up with this lie?
WHY!!!
I m like the biggest fool in the universe......
If I hadn't told this lie.......
This story may have turned out to be better...
Now I regret it totally.........
TOTALLY...
Never in my life had I done something I regretted doing so much...

Deep in me,
I want to apologise...
So much is the desire to apologise......
But yet I have my constraints...

Because of this lie...
She is so so so ANGRY at me...........
I doubt that I will ever be forgiven for what I've done.......
I don't even think that she'll talk to me again...
Why did I lie to her in the first place......

When I was looking out for a good time to confess upon my lie
and ask for her forgiveness...
Somehow the lie was exposed before the time was ripe...
And chaos .........
I have never seen her so angry before...
and I do not blame anyone over here but myself.....
I m scared...
I m lost...
I m remorseful...
But there is just nothing I can do..............................
Feeling Sorry will not solve that all...

It was just plain stupidity to come up with that horrible lie in the first place
and now,
Everything is gone...
EVERYTHING

Look at me,
I can tell u that I m fine...
But I am so not...
Deep down in me,
I want to cry so much...
I feel like stabbing myself just to appease her anger...
So much effort is put in...
Just to fake a smile on the face
Just to look like I m alright when I m not.....

This could only mean one thing...
I m going back to Emoland...
Welcome back the devil........

Despite so many things happening,
I still ought to apologise to that person
Whom I shall not name...
But will be called ********
I dun think she'll forgive me...
But I dun even intend to let her see this blog post...

"I am sorry,********............"

Status:Emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo........

...26th June 2009

2009-06-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

Why do I even care to put on that fake smile to make ppl think that I m happy
When I actually am not......
Why do I even put in so much effort when I dunno wad will the outcome be...

I don't noe why......
Not even I can decipher myself......

Just as you are feeling good...
Just like a raging flame...
Ready to embrace any game as long as it isn't too overboard...
And Suddenly,
Someone comes to you and douse you with Ice Cold water.........
And u remain cold the rest of the day..........
Unable to spark up again....
What would u do?

Emo,
Is the state of sadness and clarity...
But sometimes there is chaos
Which makes u feel like smashing ur fist into Glass bottles...
Pounding them into pieces and bits...
Anyway,U wouldn't know wad pain is....

Napping is the escape from reality......
A time for reflection and calmness
And thats all I have for u folks to think about...

Status:Emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.......

ANCO'09

2009-06-22T10:46:00.002+08:00

Juz came broke camp yesterday...
Went for lunch with Arens sir and Zhan Hui sir......
Then took bus 2...Without actually knowing where it went to...
LOL
Then fell asleep acidentally on the bus.....
Then I woke up in a jerk...not knowing where I was...
Looking around I saw that I was actually somewhere quite near my house...
and I did not even noe this bus came here...zzz
So I prepared to alight...
Then guess wad...
The bus made a turn into sunbird avenue...
Then I was like Stun............
But decided to get off the bus anyway.......
Then I spent like 10minutes thinking about the route to go home...
Then walked with all my barang barang for like 1.8km?
And finally reached home...zzz
Went to bathe,And slept for 2 hours...
And then woke up for dinner and added some new friends on msn...
Then went back to sleep........
Slept all the way till next day 0930hours......
Wa PIANG....
This is like so extreme la....
This is PIGGISH behaviour....
Sleeping the whole day....
LOL....Just kidding...
I was powerless over my body......
It took control over my mind.....
.....
Being a section NCO was surprisingly stressful and exhausting...
LOL
and I was rather disappointed with the marist trainees......
But still the camp was rather fun and it was an experience for all...
The lack of water should be extremely memorable for the sNCOs....
LOL
So thats that......
And time to get back to the books.....

Status:Relief but with some regret

com

2009-06-08T21:28:00.003+08:00

Well,
So this is it......
We juz weren't gd enough this time......
Got 2nd runner up.............
..............
With Hope and expectations,
There is bound to be expectations and despair...........
And this is what I have for
Joson,Jingwei,Timothy,Alex,Marc,Jonathan,Aaron,Marcus,Chee Wee,Yan Hui and Beng Kuan

: "Life Is full of ups and downs.......Failure is part of life...Most importantly,We must learn from this failure and stand up from where we fell and become even better...........This is not the end but only the beginning....There are no boundaries to what we are capable of..........Lets work hard together for next year!!!加油加油加油加油加油!!!!!!!!!"

And now all I have here is a song dedicated to these people...

NO BOUNDARIES---KRIS ALLEN

Seconds hours so many days,
You know what you want but how long can you wait,
Every moment lasts forever when you feel you've lost your way,
What if your chances are already gone,
Started believing that I could be wrong,
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away,

Cause Here I am Still Holding on,

Every step you climb another mountain,
Every breath is harder to believe,
You'll make it through the pain,
Whether the hurricane,
To get to that one thing,
When you think the road is going nowhere,
Just when you almost gave up on ur dreams,
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can,
There are no boundaries,
There are no boundaries

I fought to the end to stand on the edge,
What if today is as good as it gets,
Don't know where the future is heading,
Nothing is going to bring me down,
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every time,
I've rished being saved but I always knew why,

So here I am still holding on

Every step you climb another mountain,
Every breath is harder to believe,
You'll make it through the pain,
Whether the hurricane,
To get to that one thing,
When you think the road is going nowhere,
Just when you almost gave up on ur dreams,
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can,

You can go higher,
You can go deeper,
There are no boundaries,
Above and beneath you,
Break every rule cause,
Theres nothing between you and your dreams,

Every step you climb another mountain,
Every breath is harder to believe,
Yeah...

There are no boundaries,
There are no boundaries,

Every step you climb another mountain,
Every breath is harder to believe,
You'll make it through the pain,
Whether the hurricane,
To get to that one thing,
When you think the road is going nowhere,
Just when you almost gave up on ur dreams,
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can,
There are no boundaries,
There are no boundaries,
...

Updatezs

2009-05-26T20:21:00.003+08:00

Ok,
Its been some time since I blogged so shall blog......
Well,
Results were not up to expectations as I've been slacking alittle overboard...
Shall work hard from today on......

Sec 1s are turning out to be quite promising cadets
BUT
We'll still need to see them at sec2 and sec3 where there might be alittle confusion...
So we'll just call them promising cadets temporarily...

Rather disappointed at my performance at an event....
Such incompetence....
Lack of emotions...
Lack of quick thinking...
Totally disappointing..........
...Depressing......
ANGER!!!
But its no time to be feeling all these negative emotions...
Its ok to be temporarily but I must get back on my feet soon......
Soon......

Got myself injured during basketball interclass.......
Made it to the semi-finals but were knocked out by 4Alyosius.....
But its ok,its just a game......

Anyway shall post the lyrics of 2 nice songs:
DROWNING and SHAPE OF MY HEART by Backstreet Boys

SHAPE OF MY HEART---Backstreet Boys

Baby,Please try to forgive me,
Stay here,don't put out the glow,
Hold me now don't bother,
If every minute it makes me weaker you can,
Save me from the man that I've become,Oh yeah.

Looking Back on the things I've done,
I was trying to be someone,
I've played my part,
Kept you in the dark,
Now let me show you the shape of my heart.

Sadness i beautiful,Loneliness thats tragical,
So Help me I can't win this war,Oh no.
Touch me now don't bother,
If every second it makes me weaker,
You can save me from the man that I've become

Looking back on the things I've done,
I was trying to be someone,
I've played my part,
Kept you in the dark,
Now let me show you the shape of my heart.

I'm here with my confession,
Got nothing to hide no more,
I don't know where to start,
But to show you the shape of my heart.

I'm looking back on things I've done,
I never want to play the same old part,
I'll keep you in the dark,
Now let me show you the shape of my heart.

Looking back on the things I've done,
I was trying to be someone,
I've played my part,
Kept you in the dark,
Now let me show you the shape of my heart.

Looking back on the things I've done,
I was trying to be someone,
I've played my part,
Kept you in the dark,
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Show you the shape of my heart.

DROWNING---Backstreet Boys

Don't pretend you're sorry,
I know you're not,
You know you got the power to make me weak inside,
Girl you leave me breathless,
But it's ok,
Cause you are my survival,
Now hear me say,
I can't imagine life without your love,
And even forever don't seem like long enough,

Cause everytime I breath I take you in,
And my heart beats again,
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love,
Everytime I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love,
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love.

Maybe I'm a drifter,
Late at night,
Cause I Long for the safety of flowing freely in your arms,
I don't need another lover,
It's not for me,
Cause only you can save me,Oh, can't you see
I can't imagine life without your love,
And even forever don't seem like long enough

Cause everytime I breath I take you in,
And my heart beats again,
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love,
And everytime I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love,
Baby I can't help it,
You keep me drowning in your love,

Go on and pull me under,Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now,
You know I can't resist,
Cause you're the air I breath

Everytime I breath I take you in,
And my heart beats again,
Baby I can't help it,
You Keep me drowning in your love,
And everytime I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love,
Baby I can't help it,
You Keep me drowning in your love

Baby I can't help it,
You Keep me drowning in your love,
Got me drowning,
keep me drowning in your love,
Baby I can't help it

Everytime I breath I take you in,
And my heart beats again,
Baby I can't help it ,
You Keep me drowning in your love,
Every time I try to rise above,
I'm swept away by love,
Baby I can't help it
You keep me drowning in your love

Right now...

2009-04-30T20:19:00.003+08:00

Well,
As you can see,
This blog ain't dead YET...
Have not been posting cuz m busy mugging......
So wad happened recently?...
Hmmm....
For a start,
We had Sports Day last week and I was on public duty...
Realised I Got sunburn on the nose ONLY of all places...
WTH.......
But other than that,I became more tanned..............
LOL...

Then had a fall in on wednesday,
not much but the cadets' behaviour was rather disappointing...
And now tomorrow is labour day,AKA "Study for prelims"day...
The days are passing fast and the first prelim will be here in just 4 days...
So,Dear cadets and NCOs...
Lets work hard together!
And When it comes back to SJAB training, Train hard too...
STUDY HARD!!!!

Will tag after the prelims or sooner if I have time...

Status:Stressed with mugging...

Time for an update

2009-04-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

Okay...
Sian......
Today no activity...
Cuz sec 3 and 4s have NAPFA tests......
This yr wasn't too bad......
Managed to get As at all the 5 stations....
However,gt a B at 2.4km..........10min 49sec
BUT that day I was sick....
So I will be going for the retest this coming wednesday...
Then I shall get an A...
Then 30 marks again...
WOOTS.......
And
Tomorrow is activity...
Lol,
Next week is also a saturday activity...
Actually I was wondering if we could have PT...
But I not sure la...c first.........
AND sec 2s...
IF UR ATTENDANCE STILL DON'T IMPROVE,
U PPL WILL GET IT FROM US...
AND WE WILL COME DOWN SO HARD
THAT IT'LL BRING U TO UR SENSES...
SO U GUYS BETTER MAKE SURE
THAT THE REST OF UR SQUAD MATES TURN UP...

THIS IS A UNIFORM GROUP...
THIS IS MSHSJAB...
RMB THAT!!!

Status: Satisfied/FURIOUS

UPDATE~

2009-04-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

Ok...
Decided to update with the little time I have before I turn in to bed...

Hmm...
So......
This friday is NAPFA for sec 3 and 4 so most prob no activity
HOWEVER,
There MIGHT be activity on saturday......
LOL
And sadly to say...
The sec 2s Footdrill standard is dropping like an asteroid...
What happened to you guys???

And fortunately,
The sec 1s are doing not bad for footdrill,
BUT if u're still going to keep up with ur poor discipline standards,
U guys will get it from the NCOs......
And it will be done using MY STYLE......
So u better wake up ur idea if u're still in your comfort zone...
This is a UNIFORM GROUP
And not juz any uniform group
U r in SJAB
and not juz any SJAB
YOU ARE IN MSHSJAB
And thats y u need to maintain the highest lvl of discipline...
Remember this...

Anyway,Will post other stuff next time...
Yawn...
CHOWS

Status: EECCENTRIC

News update

2009-03-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

In the recent,
There are the good news and the bad news...
Firstly,lets start with the good news......
YAY!!!!!!I got promoted...gratz to the rest who got promoted too and to those we didn't,加油!!!
The other good news is that CROSS COUNTRY IS COMING......

Here comes the bad news...
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!...piano exam collides with the CROSS COUNTRY...=(
FREAKING SAD sia......
I was like so looking foward to this cross country event...NOOOOOO!!!!
............
Now must prepare for prelims liao........
加油!!!

Status:Disappointed...

March hols

2009-03-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hols is like no Hols...
Perhaps becuz this yr is a crucial yr...
So,hols is flooded with homework
-_-
Always on the run!!!
Lets Run...
Can't wait for CROSS COUNTRY!!!!!!
WOOTS
Hope that this year at macritchie resevior park...
ROX!!!
Run RUn RUN!!!
CHARGE!!!FOR BROTHERHOOD!!!FOR LIFE!!!
diao...sorry,a little eccentric...............
Gotta do school work soon...
Blog next time...
CHOWS

Status: Eccentric

NONONONONO!!!

2009-03-11T22:19:00.004+08:00

SAD
March adventure camp postphoned due to HFMD
SIAN
I shall MUG then
Hehe

Heres a nice song for u ppl

YOU AND ME----LIFEHOUSE

What day is it?
And in what month?This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
And I can't back down, I've been losing so much time

'Cause there's you and me
And all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And thers's you and me A
nd all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things
that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here'

Cause there's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And there's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

'Cause there's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And there's you and me
And all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off-of you and me
and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Sure;s been long

2009-03-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

It sure has been long since I blogged...
Well,lets talk about the recents first.......

Good news,
Finally after my four years as a class chairman,
The class committee is finally gaining some recognition from the school...
Had a ceremony on monday and got a collar pin from the principal......
U might think that A small collar pin is nothing...
不过俗话说：“千里之行，始于足下”......
So its always a start =)

YES!!!
March camp is coming...
And I m looking foward to it with optimism and enthusiasm...
This is the true spirit of SJAB...
Rock on.....
and gotta pack my bag alr...hehe
JY my cadets and fellow NCOs!!!
Let our alliance stand,
LETS DO IT
加油加油加油！！！
But actually the current NCOs movements are very restricted too...
Haiz,Looks like we have a tini problem...
不过船到桥头自然直
So dun worry too much

Will blog about past stuff if I have time
Signing off

Status:Enthusiastically Optimistic

Review

2009-02-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

Ok
Yup,it was my bdae...and its was on the sunday 2 weeks ago...
Friends wished me a happy bdae,yeah
and then Went out to eat sweensens(Sorry,poor spelling) for lunch,
Damm full,
Then went for tuition......
And then at Grandma house,
Zong gave me the jonas brothers' album...not bad......
Then on monday,
Nigel gave me a wallet...not bad too......
Yeah so thats abt all...

Then recently,
Juz Mug and mug and sometimes play alittle la...
Then the first official training for sec 1s not bad.....
Then sec 1s all quite enthu and r a bunch of cadets full with potential...
Haiz...
Still must prepare them for march camp...
This isn't an easy challenge......
JYJYJY

Status: Pondering...

Sec 1 Orientation activity...

2009-01-30T20:30:00.002+08:00

Today,
Lesson is quite SIAN......
Then recess whole class went to see Mr Kwok...
And he told the story of the marble tile and marble statue...
Not a bad story,BUT he ate up quite a lot of my recess time......

Finally!!!Lessons ended and I rushed downstairs to chat with cadets...
I must say that this sec 1 batch is not bad,
HOWEVER
They need some fine tuning from me!!MUAHAHAHAHA...
They quite enthu somemore........
VERY GOOD!!!
Then play games and I run like SIAO...MUAHAHAHAHA........
But last group I very tired liao so not good la...........
But I felt it was still quite fun...........
But some sec ones felt that it was boring =(
But never mind,quite alot liked it so its ok...
Then we watch a DAMM funny and memorable video.......
I LOVE IT MANS...........
-_-lll Random
Looking forward to the next SJAB Activity...

Status:emotionless

Optimism...

2009-01-05T22:00:00.002+08:00

School life is going to CHANGE TOTALLY(Hopefully)
I will be employing the strategy at seeing things with OPTIMISM...
Its a real powerful POSITIVE EMOTION you know...
Viewing from an optimistic point of view is indeed different anad fresh...
But at the expense of energy...
Tried it out today...And Benefitted quite alot during lessons...
But when I went to the library to study...
I was practically worn out......
(Maybe I missed out too much on sleep...zzz)
But anyway its a good strategy...
However, I'll never let this optimism cloud my judgement...
Optimism is just like a double-edged sword and one must learn to use it...
To reap all the potential this emotion can provide towards my area of usage.
But now I am just down right exhausted.......
Shall be heading for dreamland soon...
CHOWS

Status: Radnomly OPTIMISTIC

Update!/

2008-12-31T10:28:00.002+08:00

Hey people,
recently have been busy with homework, mugging and stuff...
so quite busy la...
STREEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
New year eve is today!!!
(Ya, right, whatever...........................who cares)
And this just means that school is starting in 2 days time,
I sure hope that the speeches given will not be dead down boring...
DREADFUL...
Guess what,ACTIVITY ON FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!
COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!!!...
kays whatever...
Going to catch "Yes Man" with Boon and Chun later...
CHOWS

Status: Random

I gotta find you

2008-12-18T20:18:00.001+08:00

Heres another nice song,
This time by Joe Jonas
Enjoy=)

I Gotta Find You---Joe Jonas

Every time I think I'm closer to the heart
What it means to know just who I am
I think I finally found a better place to start
No one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that im singing
I need to find you
Gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Oh yeah
Yeah

You're the remedy i'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that i'm singing
I need to find you
Gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Gotta find you

Been feeling lost
Can't find the words to say
Spending all my time stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be
Next to you, you next to meOh I need to find you
Yeah

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that i'm singing
I need to find you (need to find you)
Gotta find you (yeah)
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Gotta find you (I gotta find you)

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that i'm singingI need to find you (need to find you)
Gotta find you (gotta find you)
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Gotta find you
Yeah
Gotta find you
=)

Obviously

2008-12-18T20:00:00.002+08:00

Well,
Recently just found the song
which I have been looking for quite some time...
Its a nice song=)
Enjoy=)

Obviously---Mcfly

Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.

She's got a boyfriend
He drives her round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me
For so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now

.'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win She keeps draggin' me in and I know
I never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her.

Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now. yeah
Off to L.A
and that's where I'll stay,
for two years.

I'll put it behind me(i'll put it behind me)
Go to a place where she cant find me. yeah.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my leeague,
I'm wastin' my time'
Cause she'll never be mine and I know
I never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

She's outta my head
And I never know where I stand
Cos I'm not good enough for her
Good enough for her (for her, for her)

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my leeague,
I'm wastin' my time'
Cause she'll never be mine and I know
I never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

.'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win She keeps draggin' me in and I know
I never will be good enough for her.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my leeague,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine and I know
I never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

SCM2008

2008-12-08T10:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went for the standard chartered 10km run
Met Kah meng sir,Joson,Jing Wei,Kevin,Alex at city hall mrt
Then went to deposit baggage...
So went to the start line cuz race was abt to begin...
Then I suddenly realised
that I was the only one in our group
who have not put on race bib and championchip...
So put it on hurriedly...
Did minimal stretching cause no time...
Then we gathered at the last pen...
walked to the start line then started jogging at a slow pace
DAMM crowded over there...
So we needed to twist and turn to overtake...
Then suddenly Cheng Ding appeared out of nowhere...
Then at the second drink station,
I detached from the group...
So I ran at my own pace...
Cut through the crowd...
and then made alot of turns
then I went to queue at the toliet but tot that it was taking too long
So I went on running...
It was quite a good weather...
and the scenery was very nice...
Then I saw the 41 and 42km mark...
I was like afraid that I was running at the wrong place so was looking around
Then I picked up my pace
And when the Finish point could be seen,
I ran...
and finished off with a not satisfactory timing of 1hour4minutes27seconds
Then went to take isotonic drinks and left with group after quite some time
Collected baggage,
Went home,
Went to AMK Hub,
Bought stuff for Corp Anniversary
And went back to sch
for Corp Anniversary...
Wad a day................................

Status: DOMINATING

5 december

2008-12-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

Supposed to have meeting in the morning...
But
Sadly,
Couldn't find my house key in the morning
So cant leave home and searched for like 2hours...
Finally found the keys and rushed to school...
only to realise that the first meeting ended...
-_-lll
Then went for lunch with squad mates...
So went on with the second meeting...
Nothing much lol...
Then Kah Meng sir,Joson and Jing Wei arrived...
Then me and Joson had a Basketball match...
Lol...
Been quite awhile since I touched the basketball...
After the match,
We went to take bus 24...
Spastic...
Then most of us slept and others just engaged in anti-social activities
HAHA
Finally reached EXPO
Then thats when I realised that I never bring confirmation slip,
Rushed home to get it then...
It wasn't far though...
Then reached EXPO again by 5pm...
Collected the standard chartered stuff
and then took mrt to city hall......
-_-lll
Then we went to addidas shop and got ourselves a "Team" shirt
LOL

Then I went home cause quite late alr...
SPASTIC

FALCON shall DOMINATE tomorrow...
Because
WE ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

Status:DOMINATING

Store cleaning

2008-12-04T21:40:00.002+08:00

Yesterday...
Had store cleaning...
But firstly,did proposal at home until quite late...
Then went down to aljunied mrt to catch a bus to school...
BUT
Guess wad?
When I came out of the mrt station...
I saw my bus go off......
Then I was like damm sian...
so I decided to run my way to School...

I seriously wonder
wad got into me to make me run my way to sch?
So CRAZY...
MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
Then reach there
Then Michael was like exclaiming
"YES!!!We have hope!!!"
LMAO...
Then I went to carry the cupboards
The cupboard was like DAMM Rusty!!!
The rust stained my pants...
and I got scratched on the arm...
I wonder how it happened....
LOL...

Then me and alex rushed o tuition
Although its 2 different centres...
-_-lll

Status: CRAZY

Back from chalet

2008-12-02T20:23:00.002+08:00

Back from the chalet,
Which lasted from 30th nov to 2nd dec,
SADLY but TRUE that this chalet wasn't as enjoyable
as compared to camping at east coast park...
Despite the increase in the variety of facilities,
East coast park was still a better place for camping...
We could talk rubbish all day long
and cycle/skate all night long......
then can wake up to catch the sunrise......

BUT

at this chalet...
Most of us were like anti-social and interaction was minimal...
No bonding could be detected......
Haiz...
pity............
But nevertheless,
we still made the best out of it.....
although it ended up with the word "SIAN"
What could I have done?
IDK...
and the chalet was being run by nonya manis...
So we could like see those food sellers selling food at the stalls at sch there...
WTH...............................

Then,
coincidentally,
I met a fren...
And I felt that it was quite unbelievable...
LOL...................

This chalet made me miss something...
This thing it CRAZY
But yet I missed it(Maybe I m turning crazy)

That something would be CAMP
The bond was strong among us...
We went through punishments together and reap our results of our efforts...
Thats the spirit of CAMP

有福同享，有难同当

Status: cold-blooded(MADNESS...MUAHAHAHAHA)

waddup?

2008-11-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

Well,
Its been a short while since I updated
So I shall update on some of the major events recently...

FIRSTLY,
FDC 2008
We gt 2nd Runner up...
Nice try to the contingent and lets work harder 2 yrs later...
Grats to the 1st runner up GESS
and the champion HIHS

SECONDLY
Well,This was the last week of my working days at the childcare
Had fun and this is a new and fruitful exposure to me...
Time flies when one is indulging in enjoyment...
LOLS,but so true...
Haiz......

THIRDLY
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHALET is coming this SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOTS!!!!!!
So looking foward to it......
Will post pics if we took any...........

LASTLY
Standard Chartered is coming
And thats EXCELLENT!!!
Gotta be training..................
JYJYJY!!!

Status:EXCITED!!!

Backs again

2008-11-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

Wad do u know,
I have been working recently...
In the place of one of the best teachers who I know...
Mdm Tay,
Who unfortunately passed away in a car accident....
..................
..................
..................
I know that for those who knows me,
U guys cant quite believe
That someone like me,
chose to work at a childcare of all places.......
I can't believe that too o.0
..........
Have been working like from early day to night....
The only word to describe this is,
TIRING...
Plus I am having competition training recently...
And thus I am
DEAD BEAT
I am so going to sleep like a log after my competition

Then today helped the childcare centre put up a christmas tree...
The whole cardboard tube was filled with leaves...
I could not see the head.....-_-'''
So I put my whole leg through the cardboard box
Guess wad?

3 segments of the tree fell out...
Then spent 1 hour spreading out the leaves...
and taught the children schoolwork....
LOLs

Sad,
M with lesser time to play basketball now...
Because of my PACKED schedule....
Haiz...

Shall head for the showers now...
Shall post next time......

Mood: DEAD BEAT yet BORED STIFF

Backs

2008-11-08T22:00:00.002+08:00

Just came back from hols...
Kind of unhappy cause I missed one CCA activity
And FD training......
DRATS!~

Went to genting...
Not much there......
Just went there for a few outdoor theme park rides...
Went to the Arcade like every night...
Then spent most of the time sleeping in the room
and playing PSP....
So end up feeling BORED STIFF...

SO SO SO glad that I m now back in Singapore
No Hp and Com...
And finally back to touch them again...
LOL

Status:Bored...

Coolzzzz

2008-11-03T21:26:00.005+08:00

Stumbled upon this AWESOME song
Guess wad...
Its LOVEBUG by JONAS BROTHERS...
Yeahs man...
Then its like the lyrics are also like very meaningful too
So decided to post the lyrics....
Here Goes...........

LOVEBUG BY JONAS BROTHERS

Called her for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close, but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Chorus
Now I'm speechless, over the edge I'm just breathless,
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the Moment,
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

I can't get your smile out of my mind
(I can't get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
Beautiful, but you don't even try
(You don't even, don't even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Chorus
Now I'm speechless, over the edge I'm just breathless,
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment,
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

I kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly, I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby, can't you see?
Now I'm...yeah

Chorus
Now I'm speechless, over the edge I'm just breathless,
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Now I'm hopeless, head over heels in theMoment,
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again
Oh, love bug again

Status:HYPER

.'.'.

2008-10-29T10:25:00.004+08:00

Have not posted for quite some time so lets recap...
on 23 October,
It was the last day of sch...
Quite boring...
Have 3 consecutive peroids of maths,
classroom cleaning,
then a talk by VP...
Then back at class,
Ms menon,
our class form teacher...
Gave the class committee tokens of appreciation
She gave me a.......
FLOWER...T.T
which says"Thank You"
Will post the pic of it if I can
But still I appreciate her effort...
BUT
Its like totally weird
When ppl stare at u holding the flower...
Couldn't keep it in my bag cause my bag was wet...
Sorta dashed to the bus stop as it was raining...

Then its like...
The results of the next yr class committee was out...
Had the most votes...
T.T
Then ernie became vice chairman...
Jervin,wilson,kelvin became monitors...
Wonder wad it would be like next yr.......

On 25 october
Was promo test for SJAB...
So fun...
Then got a new pair of surgical gloves...
YEAH!!! :)
Then be casualty for the sec 2s...
Aiyo...
And it made me disappointed........

My fellow sec one cadets...Have been doing a gd job...
BUT
I think that they can do better...
I see alot of potential in this batch but of course...
Some will need to get rid of their(Individual)problems...
A few cadets have outstanding drills...
But some...
Just disappointing
I hope to see them buck up for the upcoming activities...
Cuz they are not juz doing it for us,But for themselves more

Status: Slightly disappointed

review

2008-10-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

Lets review the previous few days...

THURSDAY

Had meeting regarding CCA...
Which would come pretty soon...
Should not reveal wad the event is
for certain specific reasons =)

Its like we had it from 12+pm to like 5-6pm
From store all the way to primary sch canteen...
Wad the hell lahz....
Discuss like a whole lot of issues...
Then that day DAMM tired...

Then reach MRT station at my house like near 7pm..
Went to cut my hair...
Now I look WEIRD o.0
LOLS

FRIDAY

PROMOTION DAY!!!
By right,
no need go sch at all
BUT
Had CCA so went sch..

Did the marking of FD test for sec2s
Then taught sec1s FD and also help them train...
Very intensive............
SO FUN!!!
Seriously,it was fun but at its price la...
So they will become fitter and 2.4km damm PRO...
LOLS
Not necessary la...
Its more of the strengthening of squad bond...
So I felt happy for them...

Status:Uplifted
人生中要学会放开才会开心......

知足常乐...
凡事都得抱着乐观的心态去面对..........

COACHES

2008-10-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

WOW,
I m ENERGIZED!!!

Juz came back from Coach training at AKLTG....
It was simply GREAT!!!
For me it was a learning process and a wonderful opportunity to make new friends...
And I saw some ppl I knew and of course my camp's APD,Yu Yuan
Then one of the coach I knew and a friend in IAG who I knew was with me,training...
Joel and Matthew......
The new friends are met were simply too many so not gonna name them...
XD,

Really want to be a coach
To help participants...
To inspire lives...
To be the BEST!!!
And also to learn from the participants....

I MUST Become a AKLTG Coach...
加油加油加油加油加油!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Status:Madly DETERMINED!!!

EOYS OVER

2008-10-09T13:33:00.002+08:00

YIPEE...
EOYs are over.......
But still gt O level Chinese paper this yr....
So cant lax much.........

But quite happy lahz........
At least not so stressed anymore......
Gt ALOT of things coming up......
And SJAB is Coming back!!!
WOOTS!!!
FOOTDRILL!!!!!!
(ps,recently need to relief stress so become a little siao)

Then gt Standard Chartered 10km with a few SJAB seniors
And of cuz a few of my squadmates.....
COOL.......
But must train...............
So overally busy
But still can manage my time for OTHER stuff..
=)

Status:Excited

- ___ - Sadist

2008-10-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

Tonight...
Was feeling sadistic.....
So after doing my final revision for today........
I did 40 pushups,100 crunches and 150 jumping jacks
So now feeling a little high...
Not sleepy liao....
How?
LOLS
Mite as well do somemore revision...
Physics tomorrow.........
加油加油加油!!!!!!!!!

Status: Sadistic (MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHA..........)

=_=

2008-10-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

Well,
I know I shouldn't be here blogging...
But here I am,

Most of the papers already over...
Now left with Physics,A Maths and HCL
Then its chill out.............
Sadly,Still have O level Chinese...
So cant relax much

Can't wait for standard chartered 10 km...
Speaking of which,
I still owe Zhan Hui sir $40 for registration
(Will pay u after exams)
Then,going to help out at my old childcare,
Going there with a friend to help out,
In the place of my childcare teacher who passed away recently
Going genting with my cousins and relatives again...
So many things coming up...

But the best part would be SJAB.....

Note: To all cadets...Better pratice ur FD after ur SA2......dun slack

Mood:Normal,slightly serious

1st paper of EOY exams

2008-09-29T16:29:00.000+08:00

Today was EL P1 and P2...
It was quite ok la......
But I made some stupid mistakes.......
LOL...(EL also can make caareless mistake -_-)

Anywayz,preparing for HCL P1 and E Geog...
Haiz ...
Tired sia......

Just now ate two plates of rice,
worth $5...
I m surprised with my appetite....
Mugggggggie!

Quite STRESSED OUT...
But I m exercising like MAD to DE-stress...
so ok la.........

想要获取胜负，就得先胜过自己...
Status:Normal

Blah.....

2008-09-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

Kays ppl......
SA2 s is coming very very soon.....
so...

WAKE UP YOUR IDEA
AND START STUDYING!!!

THat is if u have not started and is still blogging....
Time to cut down on blogging......

Then after SA2...

PLAY XD
And of course Study...
hmmm,
coming to think of it,
I cant play much....

Cuz got Chinese O level paper.....
:(
But never mind..........
Too bad for me lorx.................

Recently have alot of things happen...
But no time to blog abt them....
Will when After SA2...

For now,
Work hard ppl!!!!!!
加油！

Status:emo,emo,emo...(Will get better soon...renovation in progress)

tchers day....

2008-08-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today had teachers' day celebration...
So sian...
But I must say tyat the Marist talentime was quite entertaining
But still the same old comment.....
Sianz.........

Then had St Johns.....
Wa Damm tiring...
Scold cadets and became a devil......
No more Mr nice guy.......
I shall be their worst nightmare in St Johns..
Anyway very tired la....
Then after activity,went for basketball...
Then went for 2.4km run with Tim and Marc....
Lol...

Then went for tuition.......
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo......

2008-08-22T23:41:00.001+08:00

YEAH!!!
Only left Bio paper to go......
I miss my sleep......

So tired...
Haiz..............

Sometimes,its just so hard to cheer up.......
SIGH...
This is ....Life

2morrow still got AGI rehearsal....
B4 that still got a meeting.......
Haiyo.............
Thinking about alot of things now,
Feeling kinda sad....... =(

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo....................

Makan

2008-08-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

Today went out to eat with Nigel,Shaun and Chern Yung....
Damm dots la......................
take bus halfway....
RAIN........
Then in the bus,
all of us keep suan-ing CY about his hairy infrastructure....
LOL...

Then went KOUFU eat........
Nigel was most hungry among us and yet he chose his food longest
Dots......
Shaun finshed his food last........
Then he mixed ice tea and ice milo.......
-_-lll
CY was like "Can we make a move?" like dunno how many times la!!!
Then went to buy new pens for tomorrow's paper......
Then went home then go for tuition.........
SPASTIC DAY.....

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.................

memoirs

2008-08-19T22:51:00.001+08:00

All NCOs of MSHSJAB 08/09
doesn't this look familar.......
(Excpet for those not present)

The times we spent together.....
Our sweat,tears(for some?)and emotions that poured out....
All our memories with the HOLY object...
...The BOTTLE......

This is like the most sentimental thing that is with me since ****.....
Even now I carry a bottle so big with me to school...
It has really made an impact to my life.....
I wonder if it did to you........

Anyway, gotta go study.........

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo

Memories

2008-08-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

Does this letter look familiar to some of you?

Haha,for those who know what it is,

U must be laughing like mad.......

But this is no laughing matter...

Cause I find this very meaningful =)

This is the letter that made a difference to (Maybe)my team's sentiments

Before the competition........

Well,I really must say a BIG thank you to the man behind these words...

For I(We?) are appreciative for what you have done for us

Despite u not having enough time to train us..... =)

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.......................

人生

2008-08-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

当我们做错事时，
第一刻做的事是找个理由维护自己......
事实上，错的是我们自己...........
当我们迟到时，
会找个理由来维护自己，例：塞车
但是如果我们早点出门，就不会遇上塞车了......

我们人，该怕的不该是犯错......
而是执迷不悟的态度......

Slept in store today....
Was feeling tired,
Then Kevin(SGT) came and disturbed me......
And then we were talking and then Zhan Hui Sir came....
So Fun....

Anyway,to the sec 1s:
You guys are progressing Relatively Fast at Footdrill,
Good Job!
=)

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo

Bio

2008-08-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today...
Dissected a pig heart during Bio practical.....
Quite cool...
The pig heart is like so cold......
Then its like can explore its heart muscles and etc....
However,It has a HORRIBLE STENCH......
SUPA stinky....

Then rick was like scared of the pig heart....
We were like laughing......
So Funny........
So today...quite cool
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.......

Challenges ahead

2008-08-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

Oh man......
DAMM stressed out by A Maths...
Simply because I m not doing well in it.....

GOTTA BUCK UP
加多多油......

世界无难事，只怕有心人...........

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.........

National day eve

2008-08-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today is National Day eve...
And also the opening of the 2008 Beijing olympics...
Had celebrations today.......
Watch some skit then dismissed liao......

Then had SJAB Training......
Then feel quite tired....................
And then,I went for tuition.......
And went back by bus...
then MRT..........

Just reach home only..........
Wa,DAMM emo..................
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.........

Evil...

2008-07-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

Well,
Been feeling emo and DESTRUCTIVE today...
Feel like a Devil......
Was wondering,
"Oh My,how can I feel so sadistic!!!"
Sadistic,then become very emo.........
Then
Today did prep salts for Chem today...
Quite happy la...
then other lessons...
went emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo....

Recently

2008-07-28T21:36:00.001+08:00

Haiz......
Recently feeling
very emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo...
Then today DAMM sian...
Lessons all seem so boring...
Then I like going to fall asleep...
Sianz......
I am totally going siao already...
Alot of discipline and teaching stuff to take care of...
Then I like DAMM angry with alot of things...
Too many to count...
Then DAMM sian...
Thinking of alot of things...
Think until my brain going to EXPLODE...
So in the end very sian...
I am thinking of more ways to improve efficiency...
More ways to unleash the DEVIL in me.......
Its time we brought things to new heights...

Welcome to somewhere near Hell and Heaven....

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,

过去真的是过去吗？现在又真的是现在吗？
过去曾是现在........现在也会变成过去...............

Well...

2008-07-17T10:47:00.000+08:00

Lets blog on the previous days...
15th July
Well, had my O levels Listening Compre that day....
It was rather challenging as alot of inference was required....
Then went back to store to discuss our answers......
Yanssen DAMM funny...His answer DAMM weird......
Then he panic like siao....
Lmao...
Anyway,this was also the day when the Students from china came.
I was a "BUDDY" with a guy called Peter.....
Interesting rite?

16th July
Well Not much happened at school that day......
We wrote chinese news paper report..
Quite spastic la........
Then NO PE.........
Thats like SUPER sad la!!!
It was because of sec 2 camp...then the teachers all involved
So sad..........
Then nothing much else already......

17th July
Now I m blogging...
Y???
Because we are trying out msn....
So while I was online........
I came here to blog......
Lmao.....
So thats about the past few days...........
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo................

1st official activity

2008-07-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Well,today was the first official activity...
After school,was polishing my boots until DAMM shiny...
But in the end,after parade,it was not shiny anymore as all the kiwi melted...
Lols...

Then had FA lorx....
Was just there to clear the misconceptions and to supervise......
Then DAMM funny...
I was like walking around normally to see the Sec 1s taking down notes......
Then when I walk past,they like suddenly sit so straight........
Lols...
I think its because I scolded DAMM just now.....
Then maybe a little too fierce...

But
Despite all this....
I think that I was still going too easy on them.....
Its like I did not even pump them for so many mistakes......
I think its because the time was a little tight........

I seriously think that we did not do well for muster parade....
Alot of mistakes...
Then after FA,was Footdrill......

Was teaching the Sec1s....
Drilled them like mad.....
Then teach them a few new commands.......
Then they were like confused....
Then keep explaining like countless of times.....
Wa,then DAMM sian liaoz........
Was so slack during FD lorx........
Pump them like only a little.........

But things are going to change.......
............................................................
...........................................................

No more of being nice....
Not nice at all.......................
I m set on a target..............
And they had better meet my standards...........
Might need to have a talk with them on Monday......
We'll see then..................................

fun...

2008-07-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

Well,
Had a BBQ yesterday...
Acted as a gift for the SNCOs...
But in the end,the cooking was left with the officers
Which was not a nice thing to do as they were invited guest...

Then we had a soccer game.........
Play like mad,
In the end so tired...........

Then we went to Bedok Jetty to enjoy the sea breeze....
Even at the Camp site,it was SUPA breezy............
Then went super emo.........
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.................

P@rade Eve

2008-07-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

Well,tomorrow's the parade already......
Forgotten to bring emcee script and parade procedure.....
So ran home to grab those papers........
So in the end was late for rehearsal by 2 to 3 minutes......

DAMM pissed off with the bus...
So slow then come.......................
Then took footdrill practice................
Wa...
Seeing their standards made me even more PISSED OFF
Then talk to them,
NO REPLY.........
Then Kah Meng sir 不爽
Whack them...............................
Then brief them abt tomorrow...
Then had the real rehearsal.................
Then dismissed the Sec 1 and 2s
Then Sec 3 and NCOs rehearse again........
And we all sang
"Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birhtday to Joson(IC),
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!"
Then Shout so much until my voice a little hoarse...

After ALL the rehearsal
Went for Dinner with:
Zhan Hui Sir,Joson Ic,Jeremy Ic,Yi Jing Ic,Ivan Ic,Nicholas Ic,Hadrian Ic and Marc...
Went PIZZA HUT seh...
Joson Ic treat me somemore...
So generous......
Then went to get strepsils.....
Joson Ic,Pay again...............
DAMM generous.............
Now thinking of what I should get him...
Later still need to Polish Boots and Iron Full uniform.....
Haiz....
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo....................

<___>

2008-07-03T19:33:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the POP parade rehearsal...
Dunno how ready we are..........
We will see about that tomorrow......

Then the Day after tomorrow,
Its the Real Thing........
So Suay,
Kah Meng Sir is passing out......
Then he want to scold us cuz its his last time scolding us...........

Haiz,
Very sad sia................
自悲啊自悲..................................
加油加油加油!!!
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo..............

PE!!!

2008-07-02T19:15:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!
Today had PE!!!
SO fun.......................
Played basketball like never Before...

It was like so long ago when I really played basketball...
So today played like siao...
2 VS 2 match...
Then players step in and it suddenly became like
SO MANY PPL!!!

So it became very fun!!!
Wa,then very tired...
Like want to sleep..........

However,
Some ppl who never pass certain stations in NAPFA
They had to do it again.....
Then they could join us......
Some played soccer la......
But was in the basketball court.........

So all in all,
PE was not bad today..............

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.............

What a day....

2008-07-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today...
Come home from school,
So tired...
Revised A Maths,
Then went online.........
Check email and Chat.......

Then do alot of other stuff...
Then went to hunt for a new sling bag...
But sadly,
Couldn't find a nice one................
So didn't buy

But
Still not bad at least....
Bought a Jacket...
Quite nice.......
=)...
But still feeling emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo....

Busy

2008-06-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

Well,POP is coming really soon...
Busy preparing............
Haiyo.....
Now shedule DAMM tight...
Making me SUPA busy...........

Today had POP meeting 2......
From 2.45pm until 7.15pm..........
DAMM Long...
But surprisingly,
It didn't seem long at all...
Quite fun somemore...
Sounds SUPA sadistic...
MUAHAHAHAHA..................

Haiz...
Now still need to compile everything...
Then got SWAMI meetin 2morrow.......
So busy sia............
But I still got time to emo XD
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.................

2nd Semester eve

2008-06-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

Well,2morrow will be the start of a new semester...
Not very happy...
Anyway.....not much to post..........
Just feeling more and more emo,
Day by Day......
Hour by Hour..........
Time passes by me listlessly........

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo............

Expectations

2008-06-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

I just found out recently
about the expectations that Justin Sir had for me...

I really think that I had done a bad job...
I am disappointed in myself...
And I am sure that I had disappointed my corp officers...

I have to be MUCH MORE STRICT!!!
I have to make up for my mistakes...
Its all about experience...

I have to keep my objectives in view...
Follow closely........

Although this is my first time conducting PT,
It is not an excuse....
JIA YOU!!!
Feeling more emo...
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.................

Out of camp

2008-06-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Yep...
Camp has broken yesterday
And my squad is tired...
So practically,
I slept as soon as I touched my bed...
zzz............................
lol

Woke up like near noon today...
Still very tired though...
2morrow still have section meetin......
So tired...

All in all,
I feel happy that my WHOLE squad had survived the camp...
I may elaborate on the camp in days to come...
Very tired now...
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo....................
zzz..................................

Fac com

2008-06-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

Today is the First Aid competition
We went to school to do some preparations and went to HQ
Then went for competition...
Was not nervous at all in the waiting room...
But when we go out we like DAMM nervous...
Then I Stand until my neck so stiff until got cramps...
But pretended nothing happened...
Then the Ma'am in the waiting room DAMM nice la...
So Welfare...
Then we did not bad for short case...
Long case screw up a little...
Footdrill not bad...missed the title of "BEST" by 0.8marks...
But still to our school...
Then we got BEST TOC...

We were like so surprised...
we did everything fast but the judge criticise us until like no hope...
Who knew that we won in the end......

Somemore...
AA2...some team from other school...
All the people like so strong...
In my team like got only 1 and a half guys strong...
Michael was like scared...
But in the end we prevailed...

Its like unbelievable...
Cuz its like we trained less than 2months
and we could beat teams who trained for 2 to 5 years...
This is like a life-time achievement...
Quite happy la...
Would be happier if actually had Best Footdrill also...

But we are very happy to see that we actually won something
despite the major disadvantage we suffer in terms of training and experience...

Then I went for dinner with the officers and the other teams...
So fun la...
Dinner was not bad...
Fish steamboat...
All food was treated by Justin Sir and Bryan Sir...
Derrick sir also treated us breakfast...
Which was a HUMUNGOUS Amount of Bee Hoon...

Then while eating...
we joked about wad michael did in the waiting room...
All of us laughed la...
Then also some "Classified content"
DAMM funny la...

Then I went back home lorx...
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo..........................

PAIN

2008-05-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

It has always been a fear of mine...
From Young till now...
---The Dentist---
Today went to see him...
Gave me 3 Jabs in the gums...
And then extracted a permanent tooth
It was like the Jabs were not of much use...
I still felt the EXCRUCIATING pain...

This awoken my nightmares...
That I had from previous experiences with the schoold dentist...
Oh My,
It still hurts alot now.......

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo...........

HOls

2008-05-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

Well,the June Holidays are here...
Most people would exclaim"HORRAY"
But Y would I want to......
Other than not needing 2 attend school,
My holidays are packed until it seems almost impossible to breathe

Still must go back to school for some not very useful IT course...
It is like COMPULSORY...
Everyone dun want to go...But were forced to.........
Then I have like 2 or more camps by CCA...
One is TEKAN camp somemore.........
Haiz...
Then still got courses and some coachin to do...
There is also a need 2 brush up on my maths.........

Looking at my tight shedule,
I feel DAMM tired.........
Really really tired............

Maybe when I m free,
Go do some "stress-relievin" activities...
But what are the chances of me having free time....
......Slim chances......
Would love 2 go skating by East Coast Park again...
Perhaps on a windy night......
*Nice breeze
But going alone is DAMM boring...

However being alone,the mind is clear....
Thought is process so quick like never B4...

But I still prefer company.........
LMAO....

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo...........

Horrible day...

2008-05-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

Today was a Horrible Day...
Had Competition FD training today...
By Bryan Sir......

So did statics halfway...
Then we were knocked down on the steaming hot basketball court floor...
I pity the sec 2s...
For all of us got our hands cooked on that floor...
I got 2 Big and 2 small blisters......
So suay..........................

Can hardly touch anything until like dunno how many hours later......
This was one of the most horrible days in my life...
Bet there is more to come......

Shall remember this day...
20th May 2008...
The Day when I got my hand cooked on the basketball court of MSHS......

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo...............................

Recap...

2008-05-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

Well,lets recap on wad happened this week...
Com Training on Friday and Saturday...
Both First Aid and FootDrill not up to standard...
Exam period slacked too much...

TOC,not bad but still must do BETTER...
On the whole...our main problem is that we r not STRONG enough...
pathethic,
Cant even life Joson ic to knee level the first time...
Pathethic...

Then everything slow...
so slow...
Then grabbed the handle of the stretcher so hard until got blisters...
But I must work harder...
Must work so hard until I can assist my team mates...

HOWEVER...
unfortunately,some of my team mates are not even serious...
I feel more emo...
For since we decided 2 enter the competition,
Y not we give it our best shot...
And maybe we could win something for the corps...

I know that I should not expect too much...
But I m aiming for a 2nd Place overall and best TOC...
Even better would be 2 compete with officer and NCO team for 1st place...
We should treat this like a learning experience and as a revision for ANCO...
Although we have only like 3weeks to 4 weeks of training,
we could still work our way towards an award...
we could still win......
They should have some backbone and give it their best shot...
we could score more awards for our corps...
It is possible...But it wouldn't be possible if we dun try......
So please if people...have some backbone and try......
U would not know anything if u dun try......

Then I go emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo...

tomorrow...

2008-05-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's History paper...
It is a gd opportunity for Geog students like us to revise...
So revise well...
For History students,我无话可说...
Just wish u guys have enough luck...

YES AR...
Final 2 paper...
A maths then Higher Chinese...
加油加油加油！
Exams make u feel like a coca cola can,
Being brought deeper and deeper into the sea...
And then the pressure caves in on you...
And crushes you like a pea...

lol...I think I exaggerated too much......
But the feeling is similar....

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo................

hehe

2008-05-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hehe......
Just receive news of a soccer outing at Toa Payoh(Near E Kai Siang house)
Haha...But that will be on last day of exams......
Which is THIS FRIDAY...
YES ar...
Tsang Jin,Zong Hao,Justin,Jonathan,Yik Boon,
Soma,Kai Siang,Kelvin,Soon Ming and etc all going...
So FUN....

Some people going watch movie then play LAN
But soccer is a healthier choice...
But don't hope that the same tragedy happen the lsat time I went there...

Yipee,lookin foward to it...
BUT
Must concentrate on Bio...
Then think abt the outing after Exams...

emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo.........

MYE

2008-05-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

We are halfway through the mid year exams...
also known as Mid Way Through the Mid Year Exams
Haha...

Anyway,work hard......
Holidays are coming soon...
So is ANCO camp and others...
wonder wads in stall for me........

Anyway time 2 go mugging...
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo....

Ouch...

2008-04-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

Wa...
Today I went to the dentist 2 get my wires fixed onto the brackets...
I was like wtf suddenly......
The dentist put the wire on and then twist and twist the wire
until it hurts ALOT due 2 tightness...

Guess I will be missing out on some delicious food...
And Pain-free times.............

Haiz...Its like even now it hurts like hell.........
Wa lao leh...
emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,emo,...